wave of emotions

oh no...today is just a terrible wave of emotions. initially was just when i got back the quiz paper for NLS.i didnt do well at all.infact just passed by 1 mark! but okay.i was thinking.hmm...done alr.no point being upset whatever.don wanna somber the mood.so i brainwashed myself into forgeting abt it and move on.

then it was an annoncement by a LGEE member gerald that he has just broken up with his muslim gf. there are many complications when it comes to 2 different religions being together. especially when muslims are involved.and honestly i was kinda expecting this to happen sooner or later this is the 3rd member that has told confided in us abt their breakup story. and each time i will tear as i feel sad for them.

and lastly. the worst news of all.but to some may be good news? just in today 31/07
junsu, jae and yoochun are filing a lawsuit against their company SM entertainment! the horror and shock and sadness~! i shall elaborate more in another post.

song of the day: bing bing bing bang bang bang FT island
no. of day to new laptop collection: 13 days? since their 14 days are working days

bell

wacked out!

slept and woke up a happy and excited girl and now....just tiredness...starting to feel the stretches and aches alr.lol.and all i did was jog for 1 round arnd the track and played some lame games.ofcoz i had fun playing those lame games and felt that i had bonded more with my classmates after this.
having this real bad headache now and was totally wiped out after dinner.could hardly keep my eyes open.contemplated going to bed straight away...but wait.kinda gross when i havent bathed and washed all that sweat off my body.
kinda good that i had sweat quite alot.kinda gross though.but i honestly think i didnt burn off any calories.lol.
need to do more extensive jogging next time.3 rounds?hahaha! but the track is boring.and seriously...although levina says she is slow...i see now slowness is her pace just now.lol.
really glad to hear that girls don need to take napfa.hope it'll stay that way till next year.cant imagine running 2.4km again.seeing how sick im feeling now just by the activities i did....don think i can survive. i was soooo dazed while going home that i was tryna think SOO SOO hard what lessons i had tmr.and i CANT rmb.i totally BLANKED.lol! and finally.after like i reached bedok...which is 15mins later.i rmbed.tsk.tsk.

and what will happen to my ppt im suppose to start on?lol.gonna do it NOW.and get it done by tonight.YES.with FT to accompany me.it will be a smooth and tired-less road till the end.

yes and i need to get NH out of my head.lol. the more i think abt it the more i think he is a baddie. but yes.i do totally forget everything when i go to his blog and see his pics with rare smiles and those awfully cute dimples to compliment.-smacks self-tsk.tsk.

bell

ultimate slacker!

oh man...just spent 3 hrs on the com doing nothing. was supposed to get started on APFS ppt slides. but ended up chatting.just chatting alone can last me this long.lol.no vids or music! and now....i havent even started on a thing and aiting has alr sent me her slides.lol.i feel guilty.

hmm...whee~ NH replied my tagg.hahaha! oddly his reply seems like such a gentleman. and im mentalling scolding myself for being happy.lol.

asking andrius really ODDD ODDDD questions now.a say now or forever hold ur peace moment.tsk.tsk.

im going jogging tmr.after learning of how good it is and what will happen if u lack exercise.plus...i think i wanna start jian fei-ing more.dun wanna be left on the shelf.lol! there is always inner beauty.i think i have lots.lol! kidding. but...thats REALLY just a consolation....ppl are still superficial.still cant believe im jogging and enduring the sun...slapping tons of sun block tmr.lol.i dun wnana have pigmentation!

if only this moment never ends
bell

on cloud 9 and back

yay! bought cross and change alr.yay! love at least 5 songs there.and anyways just for the support.so that they could possibly come back to singapore for a concert...fullblown style!
here is their latest perf. i hate the lights surrounding em.looks like same jail.and seung hyun's wink is so cute.and i hate it when they sing it like its such a happy song...its kinda sad =( and dont they feel sian singing the same song everyday?lol.im sian.


hmm....they say never to judge a book by its appearance? well usually when i do that.im right.but why this time? so my bubble has been burst.and although its hard.but i gotta accept it.was really happy when i found out i could stalk secretly.LOL.but when i started. everything crashed.and i knew i was right all along.now all the hype has vanished.
whats all the hype about ciggs and drinks?they just ruin ur life slowly for that instant revival.
but i wonder if that will be going through my head when i see him in school. or will it just be a blank when i see his back?lol.

counting down to laptop: 13 days?(since its working days only.GEES)

song of the day: marry me FT island
if only every guy can be like you

bell

fangirling no.15 (SHINEE & FT)

ahh it feels so good to be free and relaxed. this is the slackest weekend yet since 2-3 weeks ago.lol.but i still DO have work to do. ahh and also bought my new lappy today alr.whoo hoo! really looking forward to collecting it in 14 WORKING days.

sighs.wish DBSK would quickly return to korea....miss em on variety shows and my loyalty is slowly spliting to even SHINEE.lol. just a few mths ago i was saying how much i don like em and stuff....until the day i found out abt the "onew condition" well...onew is the leader of SHINEE.and he has a "condition" he is really clumsy.which i find sooo adorably retarded.lol. and from then on...i started to watch their mvs and able to finally recognise who is who in the grp and also differentiate some of their voices. used to kinda like jong hyun before knowing anything abt em.but now tt i know. i love the clumsy leader-sshi of tt grp.hahaha!how is it possible that even he can make me smile silly.and cant believe he is 20/21! when he looks like 18?

hmm...not really clear...but this is the song i am totally loving by SHINEE currently.

from left its onew,taemin,jong hyun,minho,key. i think minho is handsome.he is my age! hmm..looks same age as onew no? minho's rap is good!
and i am totally addicted to FT'S new songs. such as bing bing bing, marry me and barae ofcoz. and here is the latest perf (bing bing bing + barae)that happened....TODAY!


i know...jaejin looks odd with tt yellow specks at the first song. but at the 2nd song.everyone looks good alr.esp jong hun...can see his biceps forming, seunghyun and jaejine's rap is good.jae jin is as cute as a button!
and yesterday 23/07 (barae+bing bing bing)

im so glad that jong hun oppa has more screen time now becoz of his guitar focus after jaejin raps. and i think that seung hyun looks really good here. i think he is the best thing that has happened to FT island.with him arnd.they'll be even more popular then ever.WHOO HOO~!
and 19/07 (marry me + barae)i totally love jong hun playing the guitar.( he is the one in sunglasses btw) ahh...i think guys playing the electric guitar is soo cool.

yeah well no matter how much i hate to admit it...but hongki's vocals is really awesome. and he has really nice twinkling eyes.however, i just wanna use a pin to deflate his big head!(not literally.metaphorically) lol.
hmm....order the new album of FT alr.waiting for the confirmation however....they havent replied and its sooo unlike em.coz i bought from em 2 otherDBSK cds and they replied instantly.either 1. their email crashed or 2. ft out of stock!?!

song of the day: barae by FTisland
bell

phew~

ahh a sigh of relief as most of my projects are done.just my socio essay left to do.which is due this fri.omg. hahaha totally haven started on anything. plus a test this fri. but other then that...nothing else.

i can finally take a breather and spazz on youtube vids of korean songs.hahaha! sooo excited abt getting the new FT album which cost only $20+ poster~! its the poster that totally made the decision for me.lol. comparing the price to my dbsk tsc album i bought which cost $35...a big difference. but coz it had 2 disc AND a BIG and...it does not sell in singapore~!(just for my ver.so the $$ was worth it)

now im slacking at the com lab during my break which is a really rare occasion as usually during this time we'll be cramming and rushing for projects.

guess im getting a new laptop after all~ hahaha. ahh my laptop totally crashed! oh well...it served me for 4 long years anyways. so its abt time. ]

ahh...almost forgot the song of the day is: FT ISLAND's barae

bell
if only u could appear everytime i think abt u

not the right time =(

wow. nothing is really going smoothly for projects.or at least this particular one.
today when i got home. my com hangged for a really long time so i restarted it. and...it could never be restarted again! so...i guess its virus again. the same thing that happened before.
so whatever i did for the project, i had to redo again.
and i think the worst thing is that my pics and my songs are gone! and there are some that i have backed up on external disk but i hope that the person who saves my com is able to save my info.lol.
suprisingly....not that flustered.although really unhappy that this came at the wrong wrong time. coz this means im unable to upload anything onto my com from my hp/mp3 and vice-versa.

and then...my team mate, lost her thumbdrive. either she lost it or left it at the com lab and forgot to take it back.and to think that submission date is like 22nd and we're like ONLY 1/2 way there.

tmr meeting for 2 projects again like last week.morning NLS and afternoon APFS.and then at night wanna try and rush for SOCIO ppt and essay assignment.

my eyes are kinda red now.not due to crying ofcoz.lol.but due to lack of sleep i suppose. can hardly open my eyes.im afraid im straining it too much this past 2 weeks with lots of com work and lack of rest.

totally love FT's new MV! initially i thought it was a cheerful up beat song.but i guess they always say looks can be decieving. and in this case. the song is actually a quite sad one.never would have known if levina didnt tell me and never would have believed without seeing the eng subs.here is the MV for ur viewing pleasure =D



from now on...im gonna have a song of the day segment.lol. (the song segment will be the song/s that have been going through my head the entire day)
song of the day: senorita by shinee =)

bell

if i held your hand, would you hold mine tight or let go?
if i leaned my head on your shoulder, would you put your arms around me or shrug me off?
if i wanted to confide in you, would you lend me your ear or just walk off?

laughing gas?

today school ended at like 11am for me.and 10am for most of my class mates.after that went for lunch and then did online e-tutorial and some peer evaluations and stuff. and FINALLYY at 3? we started ACTUALLY doing our NLS project. the main purpose of staying back today. NLS is soooo totally difficult!!! i mean planning a meal and tryna meet the dietary requirements is like....!!! so i guess we all came to a point where we just felt like our brain power has been used up and we went a little crazy.esp me and levina. we just kept laughing and giggling....and levina made some really lame word puns!!! lol! tsk tsk.
like coz we wanted to pee...as in go to the toilet.but we wanted to finish the task we had at hand first and she just started to laugh or get blur or smth...cant rmb and she said she must have wanted to pee so much that it has affected her brain.hence....PEEbrain.LOL.instead of PEAbrain.gosh!
and when we finally went home its like lynn said she wished she could fly home and dont need to take the bus.and i said.cannn...just stand in front of a very strong fan and it'll blow you home.(coz she is really light and small)
oh and me and levina was totally delirious laughing and lynn's attempt to shout across to our classmate in the com lab.lol! coz it was really kinda noisy and the other person couldnt hear.so she shouted...or rather attempted.lol!!! it was HILARIOUSSS! ahh sooo cute!

anyways since we only realised how difficult it really is to plan at a really late time...the groups that started before us..have finished =( although they were really stressed up at a point.

and today....like mummy said something which i know isnt funny at all! but i just felt the urge to laugh and laugh! lol! its really wierd...i think i am going mad from the stress.or its just my body's way of tryna relax?
like the samsung hahaha campaign(by DBSK) says...when the going gets tough, HAHAHAH!

oh and i declare that the sexiest man on earth is JUNG YUNHO!! (i duno how to spell his surname.lol) i mean just watching his solo perf 'checkmate' at the beijing's mirotic concert.WOW! it totally raised the temperature in the room.totally afraid that if i ever watch em live in concert, my loyalty for junsu will immediately switch the yunho.hahahha.really high chance.
and! i bought a new DBSK poster which levina spotted.<3>

preparing for another week of late nights this coming weekend.i guess...there is no weekend for me this week either.ahh gotta prep for a test this coming fri.totally alot alot to study.like 3 chapts?! think i am totally gonna fail my other test that passed just ytd.had totally no time at all to study coz i was tooo tired to function and absorb properly.

im looking forward to everyday. coz when i see your smile.it makes myday.

bell

over the weekends.

wow. hahah! i don think i ever had this much things to do before.lol.
NLS and APFS project , socio essay assignment submission, FI quiz & socio project consult next week.
this week APFS and NLS quiz.the memorizing subjects. and shld start on the socio essay and the ppt slides for the socio project.

and what have i been doing this weekend u may ask....? whole of fri night.until 2am FI practical informal report. then sat morning at 10am.NLS project till 1pm.thought we could finish everything on that day...but nope. coz we gotta plan meals and OMG sooooo hard to meet the daily nutritional standards!its either too high sodium...or too high protein...or not enough calories or calcium!gees.

then 2pm.APFS project till 4.30pm. then went shopping.wee~!bought 2 new yellow tops!! hahahha~! now next gotta buy more red and purple.lol.and im supposed to lay of tops actually..since i got tons alr & need more bottoms instead.
then at night....continued with FI practical report till 3am!!!! today woke up at 12pm. with swollen eyes...no idea why.mummy was like did u watch some sad show online last night?and i saw no.where got the time??? while waiting to go for lunch, went to facebook finally since the aft the hols. and OMG. guess what i found out that NH has facebook.lol! but his pg is ONLY for friends and....i don dare add him.lol!

its sooo funny...coz on thurs we were walking at the corridors and levina was like why dont we stick our heads into the door window and scare whoever is sitting nearest there.and when she did...guess who she saw...NH! lol.so lynn was like where where?and she went to look. and she said really! and i went to look. and crap.he saw. then on fri, levina said the same thing ( this was at another lvl and another class rm) and so we did the same thing and guess what?!?!? its him again! lol.and again. the same order.lynn went to see then me.and crap. he looked up at saw me.again. now he'll prolly think im a stalker lol!

anyways then i went to study a little for the upcoming APFS quiz this tues and also compiled the different parts of the APFS project together. and gees~ just 1 part alone is 10 pg! and the max for the project report is 10~ lol! so i managed to cut down to 5 pg.but....ahh i doubt we can make it to 10...and its so unfair coz other grps...their that part is only 1 pg plus =( coz everyone different food product.

and now...it is coming to 2am again...and i gotta wake up at 7++ =(

ahh ytd and today whole day computer work...my eyes cant focus alr.i think at the end of yr 3. my specs degree would have gone whoo! wayyy more

=bell=

2nd night blur?

ahh today is friday...supposed to be lovely weekend.however...i think i have like 3 priotied assignments/projects for the weekend.speaking of which.for NLS.while planning a meal, we saw that the sodium content for ikan bilis is like 4000g/100g which is O.M.G coz ur daily recommended intake is ONLY 1500g of sodium.LOL~ and generally, besides fish, other seafood esp salt water type are high in sodium.so those who like ikan bilis/seafood...careful...

anyways as usual had lgee today.ahh! and as usual filled with lots of joy and laughter.reminds me of the "i'll be there" song. totally love that song.had no idea it was by MJ till his memorial. anyways...i was so blur again today...coz dinah was saying that jc's mid year results will be released on monday.and i was like.eh? isnt it today?today monday what. LOL!!! oh no!~~ and everyone stared at me and i was like OH YA!! today friday! ahh~ too tired i supposed.

on a brighter note.both rach and yuru like my blog song!!!hahah~ esp rach.i think she is addicted.lol.yayness. i hope one day the ft boys will be as popular as dong bang boys. anyways saw the jacket of ft's new album that is gonna be released soon and also their teaser mv for their main song. ahh~ they look soooo good~! except for minor details.but overall.i think they look awesome. me and levina even did some screencaps from their mv.lol!

here is their jacket for their new album: (click for larger pic)



here is the mv:


screen caps:
seung hyun

jong hun

i have been jonghunified!! (electrified by jonghun.lol~)

okay its so late alr.gotta go.and havent even started on ANYthing i planned to do yet!

let me fill your heart with joy and laughter, togetherness, well thats all im after just call my name and i'll be there....

bell

long time since...

ahh dead tired.and i still gotta wake up early tmr.
but despite that gonna still blog.coz today was just too good to keep to myself.

its been a really long time since me,vian,andrius,ianson and nic. went out. 6 months plus or so. the last time was the christmas pot luck at my hse. hopefully the next time wont be that long. just made me realise how much i miss all of em. i mean i know i miss all of em alot. but i didnt know THIS much.lol. had a really fun time. though we didnt really talk much abt anything at all. but it was really fun with lots of laughter as usual. ianson went home earlier though. ahh cant blame him since he is in JC and has lots of homework with As coming soon too.
but after that we went to sit at mac and had sundae and after that talked somemore and played "old maid" LOL! totally hilarious!!! esp when i was sooo blur 2 times! once i mistook a squirrel as a fox and thought i had a pair. and another time...i was holding a pair ( my last 2 cards) and i didnt even know!lol! we even had a little planning for going on a holiday together soon.hopefully april.after vian & nic's final year and me and andrius LONG break.however..i think ianson would be in army =( glad my mum allow!! esp since guys are going along.lol!
really looking forward to the next time we meet =)

projects really take a toll on everyone.though i dont feel that stressed yet. however, i can feel that the sense of urgency is slowly emerging within me.plus with tons of upcoming tests and assignments that are going to be due. feels like there is alot for me to do. in fact i know i do.but i have been slacking my butt off.and not doing much at all. hmm...cant imagine the semesters to come....definately would be worse isnt it.

kar young came to the TP sci sch com lab today.LOL. when she is from NYP. she came to visit her friend. ah she told me levina and lynn actual accounts of her experince at the recent bangkok dbsk mirotic concert.ahh~! is she ever so lucky! sighs. wish i was there too. however, this makes me wanna go to another FT concert too! lol! ahh still miss the boys.

no one can turn back the time. i just have to cherish what i got of you left

bell

hard work!

heys! i am FINALLY done with a FT island "blog skin" but i pretty much cheated.haha! coz as u can tell the back bone is the same.just that i changed the dbsk "skin" to a FT one. and also i changed the font colours at the side to mainly purple,red and yellow. my 3 fav colours! lol. and yeah changed all the pics as well.yay! finally finally. was really really pissed at the com last night as it kept hanging.but today..phew. it didnt have many probs. tried to find FT island blog skins online. but it was really little.and when they do have fairly nice ones...its with the old member inside =( hmm...ppl shld start making more ft island blog skins.lol! making skins is really hard work...and just to think i did the top thing and the backbone was entirely the oringinal. i cant imagine doing everything on my own. prolly on the long holiday this coming sept i'll try. im still really a newbie at this.

anyways, its just 1 week ago that i sent ft island off at the airport...and just 1 week ago it was their concert showcase. however, although i find that this week..and the weeks nowdays past really really fast, it felt as if the concert showcase was long ago...ahh! i really miss jong hun oppa alot! hahah! and wow. they even had a photoshoot at telok ayer street?!?! lol!! ahh...i really hope they come back to singapore again for a longer concert this time. and lynn must go!!! hahah!

however, ironically, when it is coming to the 1 yr aniversary of "starting to like dbsk" im wavering!!!! and totally hooked on ft boys. i never heard a single dbsk song this week.which is a record.lol! and i finally brought myself to watch a dbsk variety show ytd but only like 1 part out of 6.hahah! coz i was too busy doing my ft "skin" although it really is just a pic... and also i sent in a msg to junsu for their 6th aniversary thing. ahh!

ahh really envy all those airport staff or hotel staffs. they get to occassionally see celebraties and if they are lucky, those are the ones they like. and they can so easily get near them to get their autographs =(

wierdly, as i mentioned, the week has pass really fast and i feel as if i havent really done much in school at all...everything is just passing by like a breeze....which is bad.which means i havent really absorbed anything and when it comes to exam....ahhaha. x.x

i cant wait to cook tmr...!! ahh i love cooking. as i always say.. i dont mind being a hsewife, cooking and cleaning. coz i love cooking and cleaning is....exercise? (which i really lack) ahaha! as long as my husband dont create MORE work for me and helps out a little and i DONT have a demanding troublesome mother in law.

bell