accomplished alot today.had an actual facial. no scam. awesome relaxation. had a really peaceful sleep. but painful squeezing of blackheads. but i didnt cry or shed any tears. yay me. and also bought wad was supposed to be bought. i controlled ALL urges to buy any wants. only needs. ooo ate takoyaki at ion.yumm. too bad the mitarashi dango the chef around to make.
there is nothing i regret more than letting u take my breath away everytime we touch to let you steal my heart away and chain it up 1mth1week1day.
omg. firstly i would like to say that....SUPERJUNIOR is gonna have an FULL concert in JAN 2011 next yr! and the BEST tix cost 300bucks! alr told mummy about it and she expressed distaste. since i told her my budget for the coming kpop concert is 300bucks =x so from now on i have to at least least save 10bucks a week. more would be better ofcoz. so sch better start soon so that i would be able to eat more sch food and go out less. sighs. i really wanna go shoppinggg! but....i guess kpop concert more impt! oosh.hwaiting.
another reason i hope sch starts soon is so that my mind would be kept occupied....feel like im going crazy...내가 미쳐 나바 =(
weee~ ft's latest perf today 29/08 on inkigayo with love love love & baby love.....teehee. baby love is so cute and romantic. if a guy sings it to me i think i will be touched to tears.lol....jong hun's smile at the begining of baby love perf is soooo *melts*. and i think this is my fav perf of love love love coz seunghyun's rap is the best and the camera DONT focus too much on honggi =x and the rose that burst into flames at the end was AWESOME.
and saw kevin from ukiss on arirang today hosting m wave and the way he speaks eng is soooo cute.eks.
song of the day: electric heart. SHINee
"you with the sad eyes don't be discouraged oh i realised its hard to take courage"
wee~ ft's latest live perf. TODAY.28/08 lynn said smth funny : look at honggi's super red hair. and then his super black thick eyebrows. its so wierd" hahahhahahah! i am SUPER addicted to this song.
nothing much happened the past week. i forgot to mention went out with dom to shop for his bad. LOL. ate swensen's sticky chewy chocolate ice cream. it has deproved!!! hmph! not sticky NOR chewy anymore! rawr.
lol so many ppl turning one yr older this coming mth of september!!! weee~
ahh the last grp coming for the kpop concert hasnt been announced. its killing me.andandand....need to faster fold my hearts for jonghun~!! andandand save money for the concert.OMGGGGG.i predict it will be ex.
i hate nightmares. esp when its too close for comfort and multiple recurring ones. T.T
these "miss you nights" are the longest. 1mth6days
so wad are the 8 mistakes men make? Mistake #1: Not Listening The Fix: Three simple words are magic for women, “Tell me more.” And if he really wants to sweeten the deal? “I’m interested.”
Mistake #2: Not Offering Help The Fix: First, guys need to look up from the TV and see what their women are doing. Most likely, she's not relaxing. Is she doing chores? It’s time to pitch in.“Is there something I can do?”
Mistake #3: Thinking Men and Women are Alike The Fix: He needs to learn about your needs. What makes you happy? How can he support you? and “Opening up that line of communication will show almost instant results,”
Mistake #4: Misunderstanding the ‘Silent Treatment’ Guys think they’re being punished when their gal gives them the cold shoulder. In reality, the silence means she’s hurt and can’t speak the Fix: When a woman is quiet, a man needs to ask what’s wrong. He needs to check on his partner and relationship.
Mistake #5: Failing to Communicate It’s a common complaint women have about men: Why won’t he just tell me what he’s thinking? The Fix: He has to speak up.
Mistake #6: Thinking That ‘Physically Present Is Enough’The Fix:It’s about the three Ts: talking, touching and tuning in. Men need to make contact with a woman for her to feel intimacy. “Unless there's S.O.S. – skin on skin – contact or eye contact, it doesn’t count,” Love says. Mistake #7: Feeling Hurt by a Woman’s Distractions The Fix: Men should hold her hand when talking to her. “If he’s touching her in some way, he’ll be the loudest thing in her environment,”
Mistake #8: Not Getting How We Operate The Fix:Women should understand why men behave that way, Armstrong says, and the same goes for your guy. Then the realization may help him change his behavior.
haha. today started with a trip to tamp with the Lders for lunch. then walked arnd and laughed our heads off at all our own comical jokes. like how levina is the husband and im the wife and lynn is the mistress. and then goes on like so taiwan drama. and how me and levina think lynn looks like an octopus thanks to the picture at old chang kee. with a roundish head and then skinny tentacles. LOL.
then it was time for NAPFA. eks. dreading. but then...i managed to pass all stations...which was a miracle....i only expected to pass incline and sit ups. but now my whole body aching....and im preparing it to get worst tmr =(
smth random. my mum walked into my room just now and was like. omg why ur room smells so sweet? smells of a cake shop. coz of my grape body scrub, the passionfruit body butter and my apple face moisturizer.fruity smells infused together.LOL.
ft's latest live comeback perf~ weeee
so near yet so far so close yet out of reach how long can i keep this up for? 1mth5days
today my day 마치 60% dark chocolate 처럼. it was bittersweet. it is something that i can smile at yet have tears in my eyes. where i can be happy and sad at the same time. and yes! i got the whole new mini FT album. thanks to LZZZZ.ahahhaa. come and get it from me ppl whoever wants =P my MP3 just hangged 2 times while transfering.omg. when that happened. so did my heart.
the eng translations for FT's new song love love love. T.T
my heart stops beating, my breathing dies. you are leaving my heart is freezing. i loved you. i was happy. i was born as your man. so i loved u endlessly that's it. i try to resist the urge to cry
the raindrops soak my whole body i force myself again. look up.look up at the sky the rain enters my eyes as i think of you and it replaces the tears i have been holding in
(chorus) i loved you madly and i was so very happy the love memories given to me, sent you away goodbye my love love love take care my love love love even if the tears filling up soaks my whole body now its goodbye goodbye goodbye leave me and please be happy one step, one step, you're going further away
silently i fill up a glass of alcohol as i hardly hold it with my hands i let out a sigh i drink one glass as i think of you i also swallow the tears i have been holding in (chorus) my heart is cold, i didnt know love really thank you. now i understand that this is what love is
my heart stops beating, my breathing dies. you are leaving (chorus) the raindrops soak my whole body even if the tears filling up soaks my whole body now its goodbye goodbye goodbye leave me and please be happy one step, one step, you're going further away
guard your heart don't fall so easily just because. i love you. 1mth4days
cannot wait to DL the album.lol. not out yet =( why they never show much of jonghun! urgh. but min hwan's and jaejin's hair is the nicest. teehee. and as usual honggi's vocals is.AH-MAZEEE-ZINGGG.
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Korean Pop Night Concert 2010EPIC CONCERT. 23 OCTOBER 2010. IN SINGAPORE. ONE STAGE. SIX K-POP BANDS - BIG BANG! FT ISLAND! GIRLS GENERATION! INFINITE! SHINEE! GUESS THE LAST BAND?
omg~! both shinee and ft!?!?! wad if they have fanmeet on same day! who to choose??? decisions decisions! and so many BIG names! tix would be ex.
hahas....im still reading my EJ. and here are the randoms that i found (out). 1) When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind. When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at allfine. When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying. When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it. When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that. 2)change your expectations.it'll change your perception.have little expectations.you'll have little disappointment 3) WTF used to be my fav word. hahahah. 4)how much i hated poly in yr 1.1 because every blog starts with "im so depressed today" or " today sucks" but things got better after coz of clique 6+1 and Lders. 5)2 yrs since i started liking DBSK. 6)from a mag: 99% of guys dont wanna talk or even be good frens with their exes once they broke up.BUT for girls.its the other way round.they WANNA stay and be frens with the guys coz they dont wanna like waste the friendship 7)my current fone will be 2 yrs old in oct. 8)i eat alot during poly. MUST.NOT.REPEAT.WHEN.SCH.REOPENS. 9) dec 15 was the day me and levina first attempted to learn cycling. and failed. hahaha. it was also junsu's bdae. and we shouted over the bridge where the cars were passing under"happy birthday junsu!!" 10) lynn is truely like some movie buddy of mine.hahaha.everytime i see its " i watch blah blah movie with lynn today"
today just spending time with me myself and i. hmmm....hahaha.feeling really sleepy now....just finished watch PS.i love you. its good to watch this kinda shows alone at home. coz i cried buckets...and out loud.LOL. last night was the second time i dreamt abt going to a dbsk concert!!! funny thing is....it was a JYJ concert. and i got junsu's autograph and hugged jaejoong =P
been dreaming of food too often lately. ytd ytd night was korean ramen and last night.dokbokki. my cravings: 1.bugis junction DOKBOKKI AND KIMCHI 2.salmon lobster sushi and top shell 3.kfc cheese fries 4.steak 5.pepper lunch curry beef with cheese.
but all i ate for lunch today was YTF and tonight oats -_- new fridge coming tonight...wee~ *claps* no more irritating noises. still so many things i have to accomplish today! but i just really need a nap now.
"Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another’s personhood." 10 ways to love
Listen without interrupting. (Proverbs 18)
Speak without accusing. (James 1:19)
Give without sparing. (Proverbs 21:26)
Pray without ceasing. (Colossians 1:9)
Answer without arguing. (Proverbs 17:1)
Share without pretending. (Ephesians 4:15)
Enjoy without complaint. (Philippians 2:14)
Trust without wavering. (Corinthians 13:7)
Forgive without punishing. (Colossians 3:13)
Promise without forgetting. (Proverbs 13:12)
[credit:LZ's blog]
recently addicted to this song unconsious reality. thanks to LZ who has been flooding me with artist VS poet songs. when i was on the bus today. listening to the lyrics....hmmm.....nice. my fav part. the chorus
i'd take another pill to fall asleep and slip into unconscious reality i slowly fade away and begin this dream where the pieces fit so easily
i'm never really awake but i'm not asleep, no i'm not asleep i try to fade away and begin this dream where the pieces fit so easily
watched expendables today. teehee. likelovelike~ its like funny dialogue and the violence and action is entertaining. hahaha. sept 30 charlie st cloud is out. weee~ looking forward. tmr FT mv is out. weee~ looking forward. fri NAPFA.eeekkkss~ NOT looking forward.
ate gelare's 1/2 price waffles today after sooo long....like since sec 4? AWESOME. LOVELOVELOVE. teehee. like crisp on the outside and soft texture on the inside. and when its served hot with the cold ice cream.....MMMMM.YUM. but ofcoz when the ice cream melts and makes the waffle soggy and the waffle is cold. then....hahahha. let other ppl eat =P
today is a sinful day. ate too much and didnt exercise. sighs. shall make up for it tmr.
[edited] omg i was sooooo damn damn damn bored. and i tried my luck on EJ to find my old old blog. and YES! EJ chose to work.lol. coz i rmb it not working alot when i tired in china. hahahhaha. brings back wierd memories =( and i realised i STILL use the same methods from like 2008 to distract me when smth is on my mind. k-drama or read.
"lie to me and tell me everything is going to be okay" 1mth2days.
ahhh phew~! thought i was going to flunk my test....but in the end it was a real LOL moment coz me and lynn got same marks. she said we got telepathy.LOL. and we got the total opposite from the avg ppl....as in test 1 others did well we did badly and test 2 we did well but others did badly. then went window shopping with lynn. hahahahs. KEYWORD:WINDOW.no $$$.
cannot wait for charlie st cloud to come out in movies. teehee. wanna see how zac efron has grown out of his highsch musical days.....actually i alr have. he was awesome in 17 again =P lol. i cried just watching the trailer....the movie must be worse...yay.lol.
so many ppl's bdae coming.OMGGG.ahahhaha. weee~ time to get my creative brain power into play??? but my brain dont feel like working. its rotting.eks.
"your past is like your shadow. hidden in the dark. and appears when light shines. but never able to forget or escape it"
"all you had to do was say the word. and i would have waited. now its too late. i have moved on. and we both missed our chances"
ok so FT new MV love love love teaser is out.REALLYJUSTADAMNTEASE.0.38mins only.wth? but its long enough to see their awful hair =x looks like its the puppet concept this time. yay! another emo song by FT.
and today or smth, JYJ was having an A nation concert in japan while yunho and changmin having SM town concert. T.T *criessobscries* wads happening to dbsk the recent news abt yunho and changmin saying they support SMent. and yoochun having a new tattoo without yunho and changmin's names........criessss... random old vid. their best days. they here all really super handsome sia.
i love you like there is no tomorrow and that yesterday didnt matter 1month1day.
DBSK NEWS: OMGG jaejoong is going to be in a new KOREAN drama with another actor that i like too! the lead actor that acted in my girlfren is an agent and be strong geum soon. and its a serious drama too called "Poseidon". dk why lately been into jaejoong...oops~ sorry lynn =x
JYJ is going to perform in shanghai~! and also they will be performing at this year's A-nation! =( and unfair! they actually screen JYJ's thanksgiving concert at tokyo dome nation wide in japan for 1 week in theaters!!! im hoping someone will post in on youtube.... so sad....only HOMIN at SM town =( =(
my AWESOMAZING JUNSU is again from surveys (dk if its reliable...but who cares~) is no.1 best make singer in korea again!!!
and im anticipating yoochun's drama.
FT island news: and here is FT's latest jap song and MV. and JONGHUN SINGS IN IT @ 0.44 onwards!!!his voice is lovelovelove~ and everyone else, seunghyun,jaejin and minhwan all sing too!!! YES.HONGGI NOT HOGGING! get it?? ahahahs.lame =x but song is like.....bleh~ ahahhas. =x
ok just saw on allkpop FT is going to release a mini album Beautiful Journey as their comeback. The teaser for their upcoming music video will be revealed on the 23rd, followed by the release of their mini-album and music video on the 25th. their new title song Love Love Love . which is in just another 3 days!!!!!!!EGGCITEDDDDDTTM. i wonder how their photo book looks like!! shall post when i see
SHINee news: latest lucifer vid today. yay. minho is finally ok to dance with with rest =) glad their clothes are kinda normal. ahahahs. and they are singing live~ coz u can hear the zao xia =x onew's look at the end is love~
general news: awaiting T-ARA's comeback in oct, KARA's & 2NE1's comeback in sept~
iwanttoseeyonghwa and bassist. stalk at airport!need info =(
1. that jurong swimming complex is FUN. and CHEAP. lol. teehee. 2. that i AM sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo behind KPOP news. i mean like its true! ever since DBSK fizzled....so did my love for kpop. lol. i have even been listening to alot of eng and chinese songs lately. and i used to like be the one who was one of the most up to date. and now im the worst. 3. i discovered today that CN blue is coming to SG. and when i asked rachel...she said THEY CAME ALR YTD! omggggggggg!!!!!!! and showcase was like.....mayb tonight or smth.OMMGGGGGG! i wanted to see yonghwa and bassist!! 4. i didnt know that there was a FREEEE beast and 4minute concert!!!!! although im not a big fan....BUTIWOULDHAVELOVEDTOGO =( 5. kpop night on 21 oct. weeeee~ looking forward. hopefully SHINee and FT come. 6. FT go back to korea to resume activities WEEE! that means....NEW K ALBUM YESSS??? and perhaps their world tour and come to SG again?!?! been starting to fold my straw hearts for jong hun again...love~ 7. lastly totally nooo link....but i dun like the fact that god has created men to be visual creatures and women to be emotional/thinking creatures. =(
and so in conclusion....IAMGOINGTODEDICATETONIGHTTOCATCHUPONKPOPNEWS!RAWR!
rained really heavily today. i like sitting on the bus and just stoning, listening to music and thinking while its raining outside...
watched love in disguise in the cinema. wang lee hong has nice voice and just love the blend of classical chinese music. and watched bridget jone's diary on my lappy. loading part 2 now. all the shows are awesome. and as usual the typical happy ending. they really should make movies more real. i mean....things like that....just never happen in real life.movies like that. just give people false hopes. maybe thats why i like watching romantic touching love shows....coz i have alr lost hope and became sorta a cynic.
ok i have NOIDEA. why i am sounding sooo depressing these few days...hahaahs. just my weird habit acting up again. ahahha.
something cheery, sang k and baked oreo cheescake. love singing alot.ahahhas. and it helps me to re-familiarize with the chinese songs. met up with ianson and vivian. AWESOMENESS. meeting em again tmr night. and i think i can finally go swim tmr. weee~
"im sorry but 'me' is the only person i can be. the best i can do is put on a show for the world to see"
just hold on tight just you and me,hand in hand this could be a roller coaster ride but in the end all will be alright.
im back to my bad habit again. being emo and thinking abt stuffs at night when i have settled down from my busy day activities, mummy has gone to sleep. and the house is quiet except for the sound of my typing.
" there should be no space for regrets, looking back, or if onlys...there should only be space for now, tomorrow and the future"
ok so woke up feeling much better. with lynn's cheery "rain rain go away little children (us) want to play" then had mini diarrhea...zzz. LOL. must be the HUGEEEEE amt of chilli i ate last night. then walked to ECP from my hse and the 3 of us had NOMOOD to cycle.LOL. so we ended up drinking milo at macs and then chatting away and saw this tom felton look alike (side profile) LOL. then we walked from ECP to my hse coffee shop for lunch. surprised we didnt get lost. then we bought the ingredients for our cheesecake experiment
the cheesecake....turned out...DISAPPOINTING =) taste was there...but appearance was...eks. so i went to deco with some chocolate ganache and strawberries...and now its love~ no one would know it looked HORRIBLETERRIBLEVEGETABLE.
ofcoz...how could we miss out watchinf DBSK concert? its like some ritual must-do when they come to my hse. it was "the secret code" concert today. sighs. always brings a tear to my eyes watching when i think " it was their last concert together as 5"
and finally had some fun playing with my webcam to take pics =)
think im in the mood for singing now. thinking of songs. ahahahs.
i have become someone im most afraid of becoming i dont know what makes me happy anymore if only things were simpler and i dont get all this pressure of being someone else other then myself. there are many reason i can think of to let you go but only one reason not to you. 3weeks1day
i thought it through....and here are my reason for why my mood sucks TTM. and u'll see how it all links up
1. PMS. having blood coming out of me every every mth is bad enough. but the sucky moods and cravings that come with it is worst. thank god i am the type who have cramps...or else....i wont even blog coz i would be too pissed to even turn it on.
2. SWIMMING because of my period i cannot swim. and i have been swimming every alt day and i suddenly feel lost and empty NOT swimming.
3. FAT so because i am not swimming...or rather CANNOT swim. i have this INSANE paranoia that i will put on weight again over the week..........so im thinking of ways and means to make up for the loss of exercise. so instead i start walking everywhere. even up and down the stairs, cycle, pilates, and eat salad every day for 1 meal for this week and yogurt for the other.... and i still feel like its not enough. so because of this i dont really feel like going out with ppl dont feel like talking to ppl. however, some days already set.
4. PERCEPTION refering to the point above. ICANNOTBELIEVEIMHAVINGTHESEKINDATHOUGHTS. IHATEHAVINGWEIGHTISSUES. WHO THE EFF IS THE BLOODY IDIOT WHO STARTED THE "thin equals beautiful" crap. and worst. why have i adopted the same mentality? if ever i become anorexic or smth. slap me. T.T T.T T.T
5.NODBSK. last time when i was down. just watching a DBSK mv. or listening to a new DBSK song would lift my spirits up and make me smile again. BUT. if i go and listen or watch now. i would cry more T.T
6.PMS can i stress this enough??? HATEITTTM.
now that i have typed everything out. it seems so silly. URGH. T.T. frustrated. T.T now just gonna curl up and read my book or smth.
yes! i have FINALLY for the first time at dennis' 21st bdae celebration, had a REAL cocktail at a REAL pub.LOL. awesome~ the drink was a mix of tequilla, vodka, some sugar syrup and pepermint syrup (at least i think there was pepermint....). realised i forgot to take a pic of that. and once again! my face became RED. to top it off...my body still had the sun burn...so...i was a walking lobster.LOL. but i REALLY wasnt drunk....not even high. like that time in china.LOL. ooo and i tried the beer the rest were drinking and it was GOOD! for the first time i actually LIKE it. the brand was hoegarden. it was light and dont have the wierd smell and taste that i dont like about beer~ shall drink that one day. totally weird how EVERYONE except dom ofcoz...think i look VERY diff....hopefully in a better way =x funny how dom's tooth was the butt of ALL jokes.AHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. thanks dom, jordan,andrew,ernest,ivan for making things so high~
another cause for celebration, THE END OF FOOD SAFETY.WHOOHOO~
i really want MP to start soon but im the only wierd one....coz i keep wanting to occupy my time. and the only way i have been doing so far is to go out or exercise =_= i need to do smth diff~ i shall start on putting together the recipe for my dream cake and also going jogging&cycling. YAY. just hope i dont gett burnt on top of my still-healing burn. even mummy says my mind is retarding =_= so i borrowed some books today.
this is a quote that i have used ever so often in the past “Something always brings me back to you.” hahahhaha funny how i find it on lovequotesRus.
The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and challenged your ever view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. the ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself. The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that God exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. the ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.
The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.
The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.
The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.
The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.
The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. the ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all.
credit: LZ. main source: http://chasemetothestarrs.tumblr.com/post/936613969/the-greatest-relationships
went to eat at a super cool seoul gardens today. where it is like u order from computer de. dont have to stand up and take the meat urself. ALTHOUGH i prefer that actually.AHAHHA. but then the ice cream selection was OMGGG! heaven~ ahahhahahha then we took bus to city hall and walked the new B2 link from city hall to esplanade exchange. then to esplanade and then the new marina bay sands. WAHHH niceeee. ahahah
had lotsa fun and laughter exchanging stories,take pics and just eating and talking =) unfortunately our table not together =( today i am camera crazy.LOL.
something random: i rmb reading somewhere that in the past fuller sized women were seen as beauties. like eg. cleopatra, yang gui fei, venus the goddess...but now? dont get me started. and why? coz the beauty standards have changed. being health concious is one thing. being obessed.is another. and im sure that the root of all that came from the visual standards of men.
quotes from LoveQuotes "R" Us are SOOO romantic. that i can get so touched i feel like crying. but then again. Quotes are just Quotes. just like how Fairytales are just Fairytales and Dramas are just Dramas. while we are back here in reality. and im just pmsing.
to reminisce is good but once you add " if only.." and "what ifs..." to that.... its regret. something i am truly guilty of.
are you the one? who will find me perfect both on the inside and out? find me perfect for me? 2weeks4days
u'd think for someone who walked for ~6hrs ytd with aches everywhere, would swear off walking for a while....thats wad i thought too. but who knew? i found a short cut to ECP lagoon, and BEDOK central is SOO near to my hse by walking distance. and i still went swimming today. thanks for the exercise =) and now....im addicted to walking...i feel like walking to everywhere....i feel like walking to bedok mrt tmr. and next time if i have lunch on my own or need to buy groceries on my own i will walk and not take bus. which mind us is arnd 6-7 bus stops....but weeeee~ love it. ahahhahs. route to a healthier lifestyle. ahahhs. must thank dom for the addiction.LOL.
another thing i am sooo addicted to right now are........SAPPY SOBBB LOVE STORIES. idk WHY...but i get the kick of crying my heart out =p iseriouslydontmindonepersoninmylifethatiwouldlovethatmuchand helovesmebackthatmuch.evenifitwasgoingtobeshortlived.likethepersondiedofcancerorsmth.butitwastruelove. so anyways....those of u who know any movies of that sort. recommend me!
anways always love to see LZ's blog coz it always has interesting links...like the post its....and now its these love quotes. that makes SOOO much sense. mayb post 1 a day or smth. ahahahhs. but for today a bonus.1+1 =D the first one is funny. has a twisted sense of humour and sarcarsm.
and i made up one on my own =P sounds depressing to levina...but nice to me =x "the last thing i want to do is lose you....but you are unknowingly losing me"
we happened for a reason. and my reason is you. 2weeks3days
ahhh~ went on this walk from pasir ris all the way to ECP macs today. the whole duration took from ~11.45-5.55. it was a REAL experience. and nice chatting for the WHOLE time.LOL. like nonstop.LOL. NOIDEAHOWITWASACCOMPLISHED. but the WORST part was the shock i got when i got home. IHAVENEVERBEENTHISBURNTBEFORE. eks!!!! can see my tank top/bag tan lines! but really enjoyed the challenge. but my leg aches. AHAHAH.all worth it though.ahahah. walked even more than at lushan in china that time.
thanks dom! lets do this again one day....not anytime soon though =P
lets slowly take one step at a time so that every step we take is to happiness. 1week2days
today becoz of national day so SCV has like free channels for all. so i was practically glued to the tv today watch cartoons for the whole day almost. =x sponge bob, jimmy neutron, and disney movies enchanted and UP! (both watched before) totally LOVEEE enchanted. the songs. the humour. the typical romantic love plots i always fall for. sighs. i rmb i wanted to buy the dvd. LOL. then watched MuBank while cooking dinner and Ip man after. IHATENATIONALDAYPARADEBTW.so i dont watch.LOL.
if only reality could be like fairytales though....how from the show i quote " true love's kiss is the most powerful of all... it can break all spells"
sighs....been having a heavy heart suddenly lately. like something bad is gonna happen. ofcoz then i must always rmb. dont be worried abt smth that u cannot control. or doesnt even exist. maybe tmr's walk would be helpful.
something random : i have a dream to one day bake strawberry banana chocolate cheescake. ahahahhahahha~! i suddenly thought abt it ytd =D hopefully soon. anyone wanna accomplish this with me? ahahahhas
what is love if it can be measured on a scale? what is love if it can be compared to someone else? what is love if it just causes painful tears?
from more then 3 persons whom i know this week have told me that they want to just experience and have fun in rs. that now isnt the time to want to find the one.
and all along. i was living in my own bubble thinking that all girls would want to find a bf that they can last forever with.
and here i always thought that guys were the one who likes to play the field and jump from one flower to another like bees.
it sad to know that rs are not 'sacred' anymore. that im the only one with some old traditional grandma mindset to wanna last forever with the one and live happily ever after.
the society and the people around me are making me question more, and make me afriad even more. to ask : is there ever a pure, honest rs, without strings attached? without the thinking " just another rs to add to my fun experiences?" or " im tired of this rs. sian of my partner. i wanna experience more new stuff" just when i was letting my guard down....looks like reality just slapped me in the face again.
i know ppl must be thinking...why make such a big deal out of this? why make a mountain out of a molehill? well to me its like telling me that lying to someone is good and why not steal too.
but right now i just feel really sad, disappointed, speechless and foolish. prolly need to take some time out for a while =( hah. looks like im learning how to escape by runing away too.
idk it guess it is just me. who i am to judge anyways? everyone has their own right of their own thinking. but im not gonna conform to the ways of this world. even though i will prolly end up at the losing end and getting hurt and bitten in the butt.
i love swimming in the morning where the whole pool is MINE...muahahaaha and today was a good day =) weee~ did nothing much except....=x
today's blog post is more for inspiration la~ singapore is a really fast paced environment. sometimes we need to really need to slow down and take a look at your surroundings..... take time out sometimes to reflect and improve your life and mend your relationship with others. take a step back to see the bigger picture.
and be slow to judge others but be quick to judge yourself.
always have the 9 fruits of the holy spirit with you: love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, goodness, faithfulness, meekness and self-control (lately, i believe i have been dealing with patience well =P)
don't dwell too much on the past and regrets. but focus on the present and what you can do.
lastly, you never know that it is something that you can do that can touch the lives of others and inspire them to be a better person =D
the past don't matter and i won't worry what the future holds be it forever, or never. what matters is now. the present. to treasure the little moments that belongs to us. those moments that are ours.
hmm....lets see monday spent time with mummy. had peranakan buffet and bought new goggles. wanted to watch despicable me but then no suitable timing.
tuesday went back to sch for FAST test. so good. its like the END for the rest but for OSIP students there is another test. and then had MP briefing. darn. i was quite excited for the topics to be released. but apparently not ready. so need to wait another 2 weeks. then went out with JY and dom...ahahahaha! its a really huge contrast of mindset and ideas between the two. and it always amuses me to talk to both of em.
today had sushi buffet @ orchard cine. i ate salmon and shrimp sashimi today. salmon was nicer than the last time i tried but shrimp was too mushy at the back for my taste. watched inception too. AWESOMEAWESOMEAWESOMAZING! ahahhahaha! i mean i heard alot of people saying that it is confusing and hard to understand....but then to me and those watching with me, they felt it was really straight forward, effects were cool. and it was even funny! ahahhas. and Leonardo DiCarprio is a REALLY good actor...ahahah.
darn it. i was really looking forward to walking from pasir ris to ECP with dom next tues. but thanks to some STUPID STUPID OSIP thingy its either canceled or start at bedok reservior to ECP. which is also ok la. i meant the latter.
and i realised i have soooo many TBC outings next week that im sooo confused which day is to go out with who! ahahhahs. spend $$$ again. sighsssss! MP start soon please~
today in the afternoon the wind was so strong....it was scary and thrilling at the same time remembering lynn's words that the typhoon from china is coming to SG.lol. i wanted to open the windows in my room also cannot coz it either forces my window to open tooooo big and everything in my room fly everywhere....or it slams my window shut. so i had to settle to nap in the living room....it was like 23 degrees ONLY compared to nanchang's 35.Lol.
saw my SG members...only 4 came but still ..... misses =D and oddly i am more open like joke joke arnd and like more confident in leading/teaching them now...ahahhs.
then today is my weekly cooking day....disappointed in my dishes =( not as tasty....sighs must have lost touch liao =( but as usual mummy and aunty sharon still eats everything love~
tmr going to spend quality time with mummy. ahahhaahaha.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR FAST TESTS AND OSIP REPORT TO BE OVER. after this tues still got another one....sighs. FASTERRR! i hate this sub.
i will stop worrying. and lift this up to him i will trust and hope. regrets i have none. coz wad we have is good =)
im glad i went for FOP (festival of praise) @ indoor stadium ytd night with LGee =) i had lotsa fun and the songs really touched my heart. i will go again next year! i still rmb the date. 5&6 of aug! wee~
here is a song that really touched me. there was another but i forgot =x the title is he never sleeps by don moen. and COINCIDENTALLY we sang this song this morning too...!
When you've prayed every prayer that you know how to pray Just remember the Lord will hear and the answer in on it's way Our God is able He is mighty He is faithful And He never sleeps He never slumbers He never tires of hearing our prayer When we are weak He becomes stronger So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten our need Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see Our God is able He is mighty He is faithful
and then as for today's sermon, i felt it was REALLY good! though my SG members felt that it was boring =( the topic was on....WORRYING! (side track: weee~ miss my little lovelies. ahaha. glad i could come back and be ur SGL again! looking forward to SG outing~) i am a SUPER worrywart. i worry about EVERYTHING. here is wad someone said 40% of the things we worry about is about things that will NEVER happen. 30% is of things that HAVE ALREADY happened and 12% is of what others' think and 8% of uneccesary health problems. (i forgot the remaining 10% =x)
we can worry about 2 things. things we can control and things we cannot. for things we cannot. obviously. stop worrying about it coz its useless. for things we can control. DO smth about it so we won't worry anymore.
and i felt that the one point that really reached into me the most is this point : worrying is FAITHLESS. we worry because we don't believe that god is greater than our problems and that he can solve them. most of the time we rely on ourselves FIRST. before going to him. and the speaker said my FAV verse from jeremiah 29:11-133 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
the most impt part is to call upon him, pray to him and seek him with all our hearts (having faith and believing) then, will he give what he has promised us. most of the time we want his promise. but do we seek him with all our hearts?
and besides, we should worry more about our heavenly things, like our treasures in heaven and god's promise to us, rather than earthly things
