hecticness

These few days school has been really hectic! more n more skipping of lunch coz we need to rush to do projects inbetween e classes we have. even weekends r burned by projects. ha! but in e face of adversity. always wear a smile. yupps. i welcome the stress and challenges that i face throughout this time.
I mean the number of petri dishes we use for microbial testing is like woah! i counted it n it amted to 108! n thats like petri dishes alone. then there r e mpn tubes. woah!
Hahaha lately totally love twitter. love it even more than fb. i nv really liked fb anyways...just for e sake of pics.

These few days been thinking too much! idk when i will ever learn to stop thinking n start taking things into my stride. And just be satiafied with what i have. I mean its not tt i. nt contented. just the human greed always wants more n seek perfection n my defence mechanism always works at super power. really tiring n irritating as well. zzzz

planned to slp early last night but i only slept @ 3+. y? coz i put others before myself. i need to think of myself more...coz this is a selfish world. if i dont look out for myself no one would either...

Reunion dinner tonight.always a small n quiet affair...and never at hm...when I have a family of my own I'm. Hoping it wld all be diff...

School ends on 1st march for me. omg. 4wks more! n just another 3wks of classes! more hecticness to come i cn predict! x.x

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Last few weeks

just another 6 more weeks of sch! oh how time flies. lately been having less and less time for personal life. and more and more time spent in sch and using my brains. LOL. i cnt wait to do brainless activities such as chionging dramas on lappy or cooking my lunch and waking up at 1pm. or waking up earlier to exercise. URGH. feel fat these few days . not been exercising! tsk! everytime i wanna exercise smth comes up. like tmr. wanted to go swim. but need to do ND project.
ok i know MP sucks. but seriously, its a much better project compared to ND or PDM. lols.

ahhh....been sleeping too late lately. black circles under eyes.

waking up early tmr for ND project. so i think i deserve to slp earlier tonight. ahhahas.

permed my hair btw. ahahs. didnt tell u guys that. hmmm.... pretty ex considering how long i think the curls would last. BUT! i love the waves =) its like my dream hair. ahahhas XD. as long as it lasts till aft new year. but the hassle of preparing it every morning is time consuming. zzz always end up being late for sch coz i cant seem to be able to wake up any earlier.

no matter how fast i want sch to end so that its the end of the sucky projects, i fear the unknown. zzz. esp when i dont like taking risks and chances. hmm...i shld be an A+ blood type. ahahhas.

tahs~

as the time passes

tmr i am gg to the aust. uni open hse. how time flies and now i need to decide on what i want to do for the next league of my life. i am someone who hates changes after i have gotten used to and gotten comfortable with what i have. i am someone who dont adapt to changes easily.

i know u may say i am a coward. or i am not independent enough or whatever. but the thing is... i am scared to go overseas. to leave the ones i love behind. to leave the friendships and relationships behind. and be alone. esp if levina doesnt go with me. i mean who's to know what will become of those when i come back in 2 yrs time? i know prolly 2 yrs is a fast time. but. who's to say what can happen between this time?

as for now. i am needing a break from all this. things are spiralling downwards and soon we wont be able to communicate anymore. i am becoming too complacent. i need to put up my defence system once again. or else. the one to get hurt the most would be me.

my eyes closes with fatique
as my heart closes with weariness
i sense the present warmth
but i cannot forget the past coldness

yes. it haunts me.
it never forgets me.
and every now and then.
it comes back and scares me.

just when i close my eyes.
and fall into slumber
it doesnt make my mind any numb-er
instead my heart is exposed to the pain yet again

like a mimosa's name,
'touch me not'
the bad memories with you
seems to be 'forget me not'

the new year

been so tired and busy that i havent had the time to just sit down. clear my mind and reflect on the year that has passed and have new resolutions for the new year.

how i celebrated the new year. guilty to say. i chose going drinking with buddies than watchnight service at church with lgee =x well it was a new different experience =x
it was really fun with dom ka jun dom's bro ernest goh and ofcoz dear levina who agreed to go with me. otherwise i'd be the only girl and it'd be so awkward.
it was really nice to see nicholas after so long and to actually sit down tgt with ka jun rather than just hearing his name all the time. LOL.
me and levina practically chionged to the bar so that we'd make it in time for happy hour. LOLs. we had a mango margarita and sunrise tequilla respectively and we shared a strawberry daiquiri =)
nicholas was the hiong one. LOL. he had like 4 drinks? so we gt to try a huge variety =) ahahha.
dom has got to be like my bestest guy friend ever. feel so comfortable arnd him =D

but then sat and sun today was like crap. felt so zombie-fied. lack of slp. sighs. this coming week is hell week. i think i cant wait for it to be over! its like so many things for us to do and its not stopping. zomg. help. eks.

ok im gg to get back to MP now. i hope that the rest of they year would be awesome. even more awesome than the previous. AHAHHA. i must say that the previous yr, 2010 was kinda interesting for me. ah. reflections shall do that tonight.