what a friday

so here i am all alone in lz's hse...alone in the dark....LOL. using eugene's macbk. lol. i mean i totally dont understand the hype and fuss and why it needs to be sooo ex...when its kinda confusing yet cool in the begining...but in the end has the same functions as normal brands.

and here i am contemplating if i shld sleep or shld i do report? coz i cannot seem to get myself away from the com screen.

i guess i will go soon after levina sleeps too.

so here is LGee: we ate pizza hut. omg. even though i totally promised i wont touch it when coming back....ahaahas but then i ate lasagne! yay~ share though...felt bad hogging. and then ate their new pizza....erm some pizza bites thing. nicer than the one in china. ahahas. and ofcoz garlic bread and drumlets. drumlets nothing much to miss la since the rou chuan in china similar taste.
finally finally got to meet hazel. ahahah. weee~ great girl.teehee. can see her sooo fitting into LGee alr. then as usual lotsa laughter etc mostly coming from me....ahahahas. and i am SOOOO glad that ALL of em like their presents =D rachel says i know what suits every member well. teehee.yay me. and then we watched karate kid. for me its like again.... ahahs but i slept the first time anyways so this time rewatched those i missed. still find it abit long and draggy though. and then attempted to play monopoly but then everyone lost interest at the first round. then waited for the rest to arrive for them to play overnight lan. LOL. leaving me here...

today is a TOTALLY AWESOMAZING DAY (not because of what i wrote so far above. =x)

dreams finally became reality
as you stood next to me
we held hands and laughed happily
all fell into place nicely

goodbye came too quickly
i gazed into your eyes sadly
wondering if you were thinking the same as me
"when would our next time be?"

day 6

3+1

something random: i realised ytd and today's title includes numbers. aahahaah.

had beehoon breakfast+milo with levina today...YUMMY....and then attempted to do some work before badminton but failed. ahahahhas.

then went to sports complex to play badminton with the Lders + glenn. stupid renovation....me and levina ACTUALLY kinda got lost in SCHOOL! ahahahha. anyways love badminton hate the sweat. ahahha~ ate mensa. new stalls which look promising. cannot wait to try em soon =) & levina thinks my arm muscles are scary. but i have none! really!

tmr going swimming again.....lol.

darn i am stuck with my report. dont feel like doing le. being trying to do like the whole day today. but i am like still less than half way nia...how! i wanted to chiong and get it over and done with by like this week....oosh~ i can! LOL.

nothing much to write today.

it is sweet when i dream of you by my side
it is a nightmare when i wake up to reality.

day 5

just us 2

quite bummed that levina didnt join us at the last min today. so it was just me and lynn dearie. something super cool happened....from being like SUPER at the back of the Q of ticket counter i went to another counter and stood infront of it and look at the movie timings and viola~ THAT counter opened and i was FIRST. BLEH!
we ate astons. yummy! and cheap too! ahhh ate real beef (although didnt want to...but chicken was sold out. SOLD OUT! how can chicken be sold out?!?!!)

we watched the sorcerer's apprentice. AWESOME SHOW. mix of the mummy+HP+LOTR. ahahaha! PLUS. lotsa action and humour. and LESS talk. perfect combi weee~

badminton tmr. ahahah. looks like the +2 is gonna be a +1 only.
before that going to eat flavour's meefen for breakfast! omg. miss miss! then do report tgt with levina.
which i shld start doing like now.....sighs. hate this. wish we stayed together =x...

random: I LOVE MASS CONVOs WITH UNCLE AGONY AND LERWEENA~

its the little things you say
that makes my day
its the little things you do
that makes me feel this way

day 4

like a dream

OSIP seems like a dream...like it happened ever so long ago but just ended on friday. same feeling as a few days after an FT concert.

so these few days been busy-ing myself so that i can take stuff off my mind. so far so good? i mean as in my accomplishments...done all that i am supposed to do to busy myself. gym on sunday.pool ytd.gym & pool today with Lders.tmr going out with Lders. (gonna enjoy the bus ride to orchard) thurs badminton with Lders + 2.fri Lgee. and then next week mon and tues sch. wed movie with dom. and cycling too~ half the week planned out alr. weee~ if not i think i'd be bored to death. PLUS with upcoming MP. PLEASE PLEASE keep my occupied. or at least my mind.

lose more weight please...ahahha or at least maintain.

wow alot of fren's bdae is coming. a LONG LONG list...lol. i'd just consider the china gifts as their present =x

shall continue with my OSIP report which i BARELY BARELY started on....and i have like till next fri only...eks.

i wish time would fast forward. so i can float to you
i wish time would rewind so i can go back to our moments.

day 3

fangirling 52

weee shinee's comeback stage.teehee. i like the hairstyles in up and down....dun like the dance...but i like the dance in lucifer!and the hairstyles there...not so bad la...abit diff from the photoshoot in the album alr...poor minho cannot dance due to his injuries.
the song is addictive though ahahaha...



something random....WEEEEEE~ because i have cable tv i now have KBS word! ahahahaah

back to the sunny island

ok so comparing singapore to nanchang....singapore shldnt be called the sunny island here anymore.LOL.

stepping into my hse last night...there was almost like rays of light...lol. and when i took off my shoes and stepped on the floor....WOAH how cooling the floor is....i almost forgot how the feeling of bare feet stepping on cool floor is...and then the next thought that came into my mind...wow the hse is clean! ahahhaha! seriously plus the WHITE walls...just totally illuminates the sense of cleanliness

last night felt wierd going to bed alone...ahaahha considering when i have been sleeping with levina for 4 mths and then we have those little heart to heart chats before we sleep or smth...sad though i bet she is rejoicing as she has escaped from my nonsense LOL.

kinda feel bad that i didnt go to church today...but then i dont think i can take it...as in the cheery greetings from everyone...it would make me feel so shy and awkward. and also considering that i totally slept right through till mummy came home at 12 plus...how could i have woken up at 8?

tmr going to sch for this project debrief...i bet everyone would be happy to see everyone again...lotsa prezzie for everyone ahahaha~me and levina will be like santa~ ahahaha...excited esp to see lynn,yf,yvonne,chinying and juju!
and going to have lunch and orchard with lynn tmr...weeee~

and i cannot wait for LGee this fri though! ahahahhs...tamtams! here i come!
must really thank rach, lz, eugene and on the last night andrew for keeping in touch with me online =) and for rach and lz's sms when i landed in SG.

so many unsaid things left
now its too late to be told

day 1

31st post in china

this could possibly be the last post in china. today as i collected some last minute stuff from my senior i saw him already using the pens that i gave him/the lab as a farewell gift...wee! happiness.teehee. at least i know it comes in use =) but as we said our final goodbyes and as i closed the door of the lab, i felt a unwillingness to leave...leaving with a heavy heart and tears welling up... thats when i realised i never told my senior how grateful and happy i am to have him as my senior... wonder if i shld have given him like a hug or like a handshake or smth....hmmm...

i believe that more sadness and heavy hearts are to come for the next 24 hrs left....

here is the plan for sunday: wake up late and think back that it was all a good dream and not feel sad about anything at all. besides...i still have a long journey in front of me. and these few mths have been good memories and experiences...every bit worth it i guess...if u look at things as if the glass half full...(positive way)

drink the jasmine green tea here for the last time tonight~ 1.5- RMB= 30 cent SGD only....love it TTM!

so right now...the 24 hrs left to treasure every moment we have left before we leave this place tmr morning...

just remember one thing...
that u were loved by me.
and i am yours
faithfully

30th post in china

OMGomgomgomgOMG. this is like OFFICIALLY the last week here. infact. just another 6 more days~! sighs. and we did like SUPER alot of last min shopping...like we'll NEVER NEVER step into sanfu, metersbonwe and semir again! we're going there again soon this week for even more SUPER EXTRA last min shopping =x suddenly singapore is more like the unknown that i am scared of...i mean we're soooo used to buying like GOOD QUALITY CLOTHES FOR LIKE 55 RMB~11 SGD....when we go back SG how ?!?! and even though i keep saying that i am sure that my luggage plus extra handcarry can contain all my stuff....ahahas. idk really. shld start trying to back some stuff.
and like we also went to eat all the foods that we'll miss here....or rather the pricing of the food that we'll miss here. i swear i have eaten ENOUGH pizza hut here for like another yr.

something totally random....i feel like drinking tons and tons of water.coz i feel so bloated and dehydrated at the same time. and the weather here is getting back to HOTHOTHOT.luckily last night cooled down a bit.

gonna make a worry list and turn it into a prayer list...



i wonder how it'll be when i wake up on sunday
i really wanna be nonchalant about the whole thing.
my head says one thing. my heart says another.

how it starts & ends

it started with those hands
hands that now i cant seem to let go
it started with that back
that back that i'll see when you turn to go

it continues with that heart
a heart that has this twinge of attractive arrogance
a heart that has a whole ton of boyish kindness
a heart that has almost totally engulfed my own

it progressed with that touch
that touch of tenderness
tenderness i see in those eyes
eyes that i cannot stop gazing into

it ends with this memory
memory.... where the best love is kept
kept inside... my fears and feelings.
feelings.combined with a single drops of tear.

how to break a heart (westlife)

would this make u feel better or worse? idk....i just feel its so apt for a certain someones' situation.cheer up =)


Since you’re not worth my love
I haven’t given up
I’m stronger than that
(I’m stronger than that)
And though my heart will break
I’m takin’ back my faith
Cos right now my world is spinnin’ too fast
But you won’t be the end of me
If you were the one you wouldn’t hurt me so bad
You gave me the world

Chorus:
Gave me the world to take it all away
All you left me was yesterday
And this space in my heart
Now it's slowly tearin’ me apart
I'm takin’ all that I learned from you
I'll make it something I’ll never do
I can't be who you are
You taught me how to break a heart x 2

I’ll make it through this pain
My dreams won’t call your name
I’m stronger than that
(I’m stronger than that)
Cos I still know how to love
Know that will be enough
And this moment will fade into the past
You won’t be the end of me
If you were the one you wouldn’t hurt me so bad
You gave me the world

Chorus
I'm takin’ all that I learned from you
I'll make it something I’ll never do
I can't be who you are
You taught me how to break a heart x 2
I’m taking back my faith
I’m taking back my life
I don’t care for who you are
Cos you taught me how to break a heart
How to break a heart
How to break a heart
Cos you taught me how to break a heart

29th post in china

aww shucks...thought i'd be able to have my 30th post on the last day of the OISP. however, doubt that is possible since it is already reached its 29th post. ahahhaha.
so anyways just thinking about how i would NEVER EVER see my senior again.....it makes me feel sad to think about it. so i decided to do this: things i would miss about my senior

1. his random OUTOFTUNE singing
2. his repetitive ONE jay chou song
3. his quizzical looks when BOTH of us dont understand each other
4. his english errors
5. his smile with his mini eyes

omg the countdown has reached it single digit number! 9 days remaining. eks. time is running out. gotta treasure whatever freedom we have right now here....independence, parent-free and a secret =x

something totally random that i discovered while being bored and read my old blog posts. today is the 1 yr and 1 day aniversary of me and levina's word pun created of PEEbrain..instead of PEAbrain...ahaha.it all started coz we were TOO urgent and wanted to PEE that we became blur....hence...ahhahhaahaha!

totally love our Lder moments =) i wish we'd be frens forever. sorry i know....cliche and corny

would it be as it is now?
like time stood still and waited for us?
would we be like we are now?
like everything else changed but what we shared?

fangirling 51

okay FINNAALLYY SHINee's long awaited comeback is here....
however, EKS! totally NOT NOT loving their new looks.and their concept is BADBOY. eks! wads so bad boy abt this?! anyways the looks are a disappointment enough....i just hope their songs would be awesome =D still tryna keep my hopes up

and junsu was hospitalised in LA like 1 week ago due to fatigue! oh nooosss! how did i like only find out today?! i need to keep up with his news....ahhh JYJ still recording in LA. waiting waiting~ wondering....will they have a new colour? i hope not.

ahhh jae beom coming to SG and lee minho too....AGAIN. and 2AM HAD their showcase in SG alr.....T.T stop coming! wait for me to come back first! rawr. i hope my FT dears come at the end of the yr or smth...love~

weee~ nice to see suju-M advertising for semir....ahahhah! i happen to love the clothes from there.ahahaaha.

ahhh~ persistant headache is killing me =(

28th post in china

looking at one of the OSIP members countdown to the days that we go back, on msn....makes me feel that time is passing real quickly.

i mean just think....so fast and world cup is over! i cannot believe i stayed up 2 consecutive days till 4am+++ but the match between uraguay and germany was totally worth it. coz i got to see muller ahahhaha~ in my defense i like him also because he is capable of scoring goals okay.....ahhaha
rach! i cannot believe that u like him too~ we have GREAT taste. AHAAHHAHA.
but right now i am suffering! i feel sooooo sleepy.rawr.

i mean i try and convince myself everyday that nothing much will change once we step back onto our lovely island we call home. but its getting harder everyday. because something seems to have changed again......and i seem to be happier than ever. i think these happy memories would be exactly the thing that may just cause my misery later on......eks.

andand i gotta credit rach's blog again! ahaahha love this comic strip!

12 more days before its back to reality.

its a blessing to be able to give love
its an even greater blessing to be loved

bell

27th post in china

in exactly 2 weeks at this time...i would be already fast asleep at home in SINGAPORE. wow. how time flies scares me.
soon its home sweet home....but the memories that i have to leave here......sighs

nothing much to post this week? ahahahha just that my senior is really cute...as in not looks but character and behaviour? AHHAAHA.

left like the last few weeks to do some last min shopping...weee! ahaahah addicted to shoppping here alr coz its much cheaper than SG.....
but i miss window shopping with dear ah mah heng =)

things seem to be better....i think? idk.....hmmm ofcoz there are occassionally questions in my mind. but i always try to erase them and push em aside and not think too much. coz that would only feed my fears. which i shldnt be having in the first place. but today.....in lorelle's world...it was like a sunny sunshine day =P although in nanchang it was cloudy and then thunderstorm. if only everyday could be a day like today.....

some feelings are hard to supress.
but...some should be.

bell

26th post in china (as...)

as the curtain closes
and things come to an end
everything comes to a stand still
and the questions in my head, i can't comprehend

as it once again rears its ugly head
all at once these feelings burst in my heart
the words that were said
with the hurt i can't seem to part

as things change
are all these all just an excuse?
i have nothing to gain.
but all to lose.

as you underestimate my feelings
i overestimate yours
maybe nothing is ever as it seems
and this whole thing are like internal wars

as the time passes real quickly
its too late to turn back
i just hope things end up nicely
cos' now, its too late for regrets.

bell

25th post china

ahhh more gift shopping today =P

yay i heard that my mum already sent the letters to LG and SG. hope that everyone reads it and i didnt miss out anyone =x

FT has new jap song. WEEE! not that that fantastic....just really glad to hear from them again. their hair styles....awful....BUT LOVE JONGHUN'S GUITAR SOLO.teehee.

been a long time since i blogged with post its =)






eks late. need to go =)

bell

24th post in china

just another 3 more weeks starting this coming monday and going backkk~!

the heat here is unbelievable..........36-37 degrees for 3 consecutive days! omg.... please rmb we dont have aircon in dorms so.......when sleeping at night...OMG -faints-

today is a saturday. yet we are staying in due to the heat outside. only at night then we going out. and yet singapore is like raining everyday?! sighs. had the best chat with lynn 2 days ago. miss her TTM. =(

and the heat here is making everyone irritated so easily.which sucks ttm coz it gets ME irritated that way.

have u ever in ur mind thought something to be sooo impossible and would hate it to happen but when it actually happens its soo ridiculous and yet enjoy it? ahahaha. well it has happened. -dramatic music- ahahahha really glad i have someone else to talk to vent my frustrations to here now =D and someone i never thought i'd ever.

im not a believer of platonic relationships. well thats just me. guess trust comes hard for me. but then there is always that questionable commitment factor. or did i read u wrong? that mayb u are the "play the field type?"

where was once that spark in my eyes?
where was once that flutter in my heart?
where was once that butterfly in my stomach?
instead? what's this unfamiliar feeling creeping up on me?

bell

50th fangirling

wowowow jaechunsu is going to record a new album. sighs. although i am happy the 3 are still together....but it isnt the same without sexy leader yunho and maknae changmin =(
(allkpop)
We previously reported that the trio was scheduled to work with kayne west and timberland and with the trio in Los Angeles, it seems like the collaboration is underway. The new album will be produced by Kim Hyun Suk.The album is slated for release some time in August and with the album geared towards Asia, there could be tracks in both Korean and Japanese. The album is supposed to be released under a famous international record label but no further information was given.

also following up on their lawsuit:
it’s been revealed that the trio is now demanding 3 billion won—which roughly converts to about $2.5 million in U.S.—from SM Entertainment, to fairly compensate the earnings they’ve made from various TVXQ-activities to date.

According to JaeChunSu’ claim, since the trio’s contract with SM is now void (since October 2009) due to its illegality, the profit that SME earned from the contract should now rightfully be returned to the three members. Since the whole group has earned 60 billion won in total, the trio believes each member deserves at least 10 billion won, deducting SME’s own expenses. However, they have decided to demand only one tenth of that amount for now, ultimately seeking for 3 billion won (2.5 million USD).

personally i hope it will be over soon that it will stop anymore damage to the name of DBSK.sobscriestears.

awww this song from jo kwon is so cute. although it takes time for me to get used to the tune. but the lyrics are love~ i will melt if a guy sings this to me....ahahahha ofcoz he needs to give me the eng lyrics translations. ahahhaah


and then.....kim hyun joong, the guy who act as jihoo in BOF is leaving SS501 to persue acting!eks! omggg. how can?! i mean though i dont support them....but still...so bad to his fellow members leh~

saw harry potter and the deathly hollows trailer.....AWESOMAZING! MUST WATCH.WANNA WATCH. part 1 in nov 2010. part 2 in july 2011. and weee~ tom felton AKA draco malfoy is still cast in the show. there were rumours that he wont stay till the end. woots.


bell