countdown to loss

just another day to the loss of freedom. lols. less than a day actually....sighs...the start of school again. with new people, new teachers, new environment, and new subjects....or fairly new la. and luckily there is smth old. lynn. LOLs.

but honestly, im someone who would prefer to stick to my comfort zone and not try new things. =/

this holiday from april to aug, 4 months, i would really like to thank god to all the changes, both good and bad, that he has made in my life. trying out many new things as well such as small things like making kimchi, and bigger things to gg korea with Lders and myanmar mission trip.

all i can do now is speculate on how sch would be for the next two years. SUFFERINGS. but i have already planned ahead. im someone who loves motivations. and my motivation would be to go to a 1 mth long getaway to korea. with whoever is available...ofcoz best would b w Lders agn XD since we three can spazz tgt abt ALL korea related stuff hahahas.

i shall try and blog more now that sch is starting. but im sure that twitter would still end up being more abused. my poor followers.HAHHAS.

and i also havent been updating my food blog =/

new time table, new priorities to be set. HWAITING~

dream queen

i think i have a sleep disorder. since idk when i have been having dreams every single night. multiple dreams....dream within dreams...etc. and it makes me tired when i wake up tt no amt of sleep is really enuf. it is good when i have good and happy dreams ofcoz...coz it wld keep me happy the whole day. bad if it is bad dreams. duh. when i say bad i dont mean like scary ghost whatever. but like realistic scary.like someone dying.

these few days been having lotsa good dreams. mayb tts why its been putting me in a good mood. hahhas. this whole week in fact XD.

lotsa dreams seem to bring back ppl frm the past. HAH. weird but interesting. mayb tts why im in an even better mood coz srsly i feel e past is better than the present and future. accept for Lders and clique 6...e past few 3 yrs were quite a blur and bleh. =x

but living in the past isnt a good thing...it makes my present life look so bleh...and it makes me wish stuffs i knw wont happen. make me feel things i knw tt r baseless feelings. not good at all coz all those feelings that i tried so hard to get rid of is slowly coming back. i knew this would happen sooner or later. but i have always been in denial.

i hate the green monster. i guess over the years no one else would do because they r just not you. =/

kwave concert!

wow i better type this all out here before i forget! lols...as it is i dont even rmb all the songs that were sung alr =(

1.FT island and they sang love love love, hello hello, bing bing bing, barae

2. touch, with rockin the club, today, and idk wad....

3. x-5 with fantasy, the show is over and don't come near me

4. dalshabet with pink rocket, some song and then supa dupa diva

5.teen top with clap man, supa luv, angel?

6.Dae Guk Nam Ah(The Boss) with stumble stumble, admiring boy, and idk alr =/

7.Miss A sang breathe, some english song, some slow song and then you don't know me

8.ukiss sang bingeul bingeul, 0330, everyday, and man man hani

9. 2ne1 sang to anyone, lonely, can't nobody and i don't care

10. big bang first sang tonight, then seungri had two song solo, taeyang had 2 song solo, GDTOP had 2 song solo double bubble and high highand then big bang sang love song and put your hands up?

i really wanna see beast and mblaq live! i hope the next kwave concert would have them inside. and i wanna see like 2ne1 and bb agn and like dbskJYJand FT! whoo~ its always like this after a concert...I miss jonghun so much! like I feel I didn't get to see him enuff bit he cut hair back to his flippy soft kind and he kept flipping his hair too! poor minhwannie! cnt play w e rest during Bing Bing Bing :( the grps like touch,x-5, the boss D-NA n teen top really far exceeded expectations! there were so many look alikes a feel alikes haha like teen top had a guy tt looks like a young ver. of seven. then karam frm the boss was like jaejoong. then touch and x-5 had a 2pm feel but less annoying =x basically it was worth every cent! like 3.5 hrs lor! next time I wanna like go agn...provided they at least haf some main grps I like first...o don't mind rookie grps anymore! hehe XD

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renewal

looking back and reading my previous post makes me feel so guilty about everything. its so funny how a few mths ago i was so blissful...and suddenly i have become hard hearted and did a drastic move...i find myself so scary. sighs...i wonder if im fated to haf this kinda sad life. but i gotta do what i think is right.

on the other hand i got admitted into massey university. a uni that i was so bitter about because of their screwed up system. but then agn when it is offered...without any pride i accepted. guess this kinda matters pride shldnt come in ur way.

its gonna be a hard 2 yrs though. and i hope tt lynn wld be able to help me...otherwise i'd crash n burn on my own. =/ esp maths...which i suck at =/

a new life ahead. with bittersweet changes and renewal. i hope somethings dont change though. like i wld aways haf my Lders w me and my besties. <3