another step forward to adulthood

althought i turned 21 years old just barely less than 6 mths ago...i dont feel like an adult. im still nt as independent as i wanna be. still sheltered under the wings of love of my mum.

but i will FINALLY be alone at home for the FIRST time in my life like not like alone for an aftnn kind...but like for a few days kind. although nt like i havent been away from my mum before. the 4 mths internship stint in china 2 yrs ago during poly and the annual trip overseas with friends has already given me a feel of independence.
anyway for the first night i will have the besties sleeping over :) movie marathon and our Lders ala brunch :) so exciting! havent done this in a while~~ used to be more often during the poly days. SIGH. being young has its perks i guess. 

and...i FINALLY have my own debit card. not like i havent had any bank accounts or cards before. but like FINALLY its under my  OWN  name and not some joint account with my mum and i opened it myself :) so i get to keep it and USE IT. hehe. PLUS. the card is FREE FOREVER. LOLS. 

ofcoz i cant imagine life without my mum...and i still love her and want her to be around forever. BUT. like i always sing to levina. im like a bird...i wanna fly away...(if those r even actually the correct lyrics) :x

so another two baby steps forward to adulthood for me. i dont have to worry about LOOKING like an adult though. with the help of school its giving me a big leap to looking OLD. with the lack of sleep and tons of things to do. white hairs. eye bags. wrinkles. excess fat. GONE is my youthful look. just a haggard face. MEH. 

final breath

a sudden loss of a loved one is never easy...
easy for the loved one. not for the rest. 
without much sufferings or pain. with their final breath they just slip away. 
while much mystery surrounds unanswered questions or unsaid final last words between each one of those left behind
mourn we all shall...memories we all keep...
and always that timely typical family reunion that we usually wld like to avoid.
changes would be inevitable after this. 

earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust...
we return to where we belong. we return to our maker. 
when God calls. we should be ready.