growing old

when searching for pictures, even looking at pictures of strangers made me tear. how often do you see old couples still so loving like this? 
im sure it is still possible. just that it seems to be getting more rare. or is it the cynicism in us that prefer thinking otherwise. 


i wonder how i would be when i grow old. how i would behave how i would look like. perhaps a burden. or perhaps well taken care of. it feels so long more to go. another 40 yrs or more. but yet looking back. 20 years of my life has just passed like that. another 20 will just pass me by just as fast. 


will i just be stuck in this mundane life? or would i be able to do something more meaningful with it for the next 20 years?


and just as importantly... i hope we will be like the couple in this picture. old and grey with wrinkles. yet. the twinkle and love in the expression says it all. 

happy go lucky

it has always been the case. that when i get overly happy, smth bad would go awfully wrong. just like the day i recieved my results. thinking abt tt now makes me suddenly pessimistic. what if its not a chain reaction thing anymore but more of a 'drop bomb' kinda thing. what i mean is that the bad things dont happen so often but when its bad it really is bad. >< 


the next best thing would be if Lders were schooling tgt. that would be so perfect to a T. then perhaps even more amusing things would happen 


so there is this thing that i just must blog about. becoz everytime i remember it i cnt help but laugh to myself


a scene in school:
me: lynnette i need to get my laptop from locker. accompany me?
lynn: okay~ 
(when we reached locker area)
me: no one here. so dark and scary...
i walked toward the locker and started to unlock my lock when i realised eh...where is lynn??
me: lynnette! where r u ??
lynn: here~~ (as she emerges from behind the lockers)
me: hahaha why u walk one big round for?
lynn: i wanted to scare u...
me: then why did u even respond when i asked where r u??? LOLOL
lynn: oh ya LOLOL


another funny scenario w eugene dear


at the steamboat place:
eugene: i want to cook soft boil egg and eat w the udon. like i make my own type of ban mian
me: ok i help you aft we clear the ingredients in the pot
while clearing the ingredients he ate it w his noodles. when i started to cook the egg....he realised he finished the noodles alr. 
me: okay can cook the egg alr :)
eugene: yay! then i can eat with my noodles....which i finished alr....
WAKAKAK. LOLOL.


anyways bottom line is. im rly so happy this mth. blissful too if i might add. i count my blessings every time <3

reflecting

i am finally blogging a long overdue post. if i were to look back on the past month i have probably learnt this...

blogger has a new layout format. hopefully this works better than the previous. still takes some getting used to.

and as much as i am of an open book...

luckily my eyes don't turn green everytime i get jealous.

or blue when im sad

or red when im angry.

nevertheless....i guess im still an open book. 

but on another note. things are looking positive now :) 

like i said the making up probably makes all the quarrels worth it. and on top of it makes us closer and more concious of each other's needs. 

and i got rly big shoes to fill in terms of cooking .__. stress!

and on a more religious note. really good to catch up with LGee girls today! 

and smth yu ru said rly makes sense. everytime we feel down and discouraged or keep looking down on ourselves. it is a spiritual attack from the devil. coz he wants to take away our significance, our self worth and our self smth smth. so we shld pray and ask for peace and calmness in our hearts. 

also i guess it really is important for god to be the centre and the pillar of support for all relationships. i really think it makes a difference. and im really glad that we're working towards that :)