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i have decided to update my blog more often. once again i cant stress enough how i have neglected blogger coz of twitter.LOLS~!

they say dreams are your subconsious mind working. but sometimes im nt even thinking abt smth and yet i dream abt it and then it makes me think abt it. and that is usually something i dont really wanna think about. rather i would wanna forget.

its so funny. why do i always like someone i could never get? ah.because the good ones are usually taken.

really too fiery these few mths. HAH. my mum say i watch too many korean dramas. and usually they will have women who are quite fiesty. arh?really? ahaaha.maybe.don't tt show how well i fit into the korean society? LOLS.

i dont know why there is this nagging awkwardness lately with the LG. plus after what has passed. the feeling is worst. maybe because it is a place where anger is frowned upon. where everyone has to clench their teeth and smile eventhough their heart and head is about to explode with anger. ahhh....those judging eyes. always the reason why the gap can never be closed. everytime i take a step forward. i take two steps backwards.

i forsee a hectic schedule again in school with many labs. but i do not care. i must have my drink this wed. and cutie singer. and no i m nt an alcoholic. heh ^^;

wanderless wonder

i wonder if i should change to a tumblr account... that way it would be easier to update because all it takes are a few pictures. and pictures speak a thousand words.

anyways, the new life in uni. seems much less of the life i knew.pure carefree joy is like a luxury for me. because its so hard to come by. what would it be like if i had not chosen this path? i have always wondered to myself. how different would it be? would i really have much more joy than this? infact....stress is like a cheap sales now. because in cheap sales...u get more things that what u actually planned to get. so im getting more 'stress' than i really want...or need.

anyways....i am a person who finds it very hard to make decisions. but when i have made up my mind...i m not one to change it. however. there is this one issue that breaks the norm. this issue is a deviant. it is when it concerns issues of the heart. for years i have never been able to break out of this web. and recently....or rather mayb nt so recently...it the web just got thicker. just add another to the unsolvable equation. -_-; for the most unexpected. ha. i doubt anyone really reads this now anwyays. its just my avenue to rant.

but through this hell hole. i feel so much better everytime i spend any free time i got with you,although mayb its nt so often. its almost wierd to be true. i wonder how u would act if u knew. coz i knw u prolly dont feel the way i do.

when i m free i really gotta sort things out man. my heart is really so messed up. i dont even know where these thoughts suddenly come from.

so this is how i always feel when i dream about u....bittersweet...

wait....now this is which you?

u see the funny thing is....in the end....i wont be with either two. thats the saddest part.