well...this would prolly be my last entry before i head off for 2 holidays. last day working at rc was sun.since this time round the rc girls werent working together.i relied mostly on the aunties there.esp 2.and leaving them made me feel a litle sad.i will really miss the gossiping with hashim as well.i wanna have a gay best friend.lol.and the really funny ahmad.
today the 3 'L'ders are gonna have another dbsk concert marathon.waiting for the other 2's arrival.bought the ready made kimchi fried rice paste just to test out.so ofcoz u guessed it, gonna make kimchi fried rice.
then in another 12 hrs or less its off to HK ppl!!!and right aft HK 1 day later, is turkey!awesome!the rc girls are gonna stay over as our flight is as early as 6.30am therefore we gotta be there by 4.30 am.gosh.-faints-
sighs...i hope that these 2 holidays away would help me clear my head and find myself.i would definately enjoy it much since its a step away from reality for almost 2 weeks.mayb i'd never face up to reality after that and just let matters pass in the end and become my happy self back.
and im sooo wayyy wayyy behind BOF.and its gonna be the last epis soon...is it this week?crap.i don even know where i stopped anymore.
oh yeah and REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY disappointing news...I CANT GO FOR THE DBSK CONCERT!!!!! T.T!!its like in june in bangkok.NOT DURING THE SCH HOLS!...unless by some miracle dec they ARE having it in KL or else my chances are like zilch.mayb another trip up to kl anyways to get the concert dvd?anyone wanna come?lol.
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Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
inspired one morning....
at the cross-roads
at the point of no return
what was lost can never be found
is there no one left around?
fanning the flames of hurt
as the sparks of anger
ignites the fire of sadness
is there no one else?
im at a masquerade
at a hide and seek parade
except no one can find me
where have i gone?
at the point of no return
what was lost can never be found
is there no one left around?
fanning the flames of hurt
as the sparks of anger
ignites the fire of sadness
is there no one else?
im at a masquerade
at a hide and seek parade
except no one can find me
where have i gone?
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
top 10 things of the week
1. i wish i DIDNT need friends(unfortunately i do.hate that fact.)
2.i am NOT looking forward to school reopening.
3.exactly 1 more week to HK trip with RC girls
4. need to catch up on BOF and SPAZZES;DBSK..WAAAYYY behind.
5.getting more and more cynical abt ALL types of r/s
6.i feel like i am getting fatter and fatter
7.i wish i can stop eating and have anorexia(i think i WILL)
8.i really am enjoying my job now(except for the feet pains)
9.i wanna try not talking for a day
10.i really wish i could die early (not before dbsk concert ofcoz)
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2.i am NOT looking forward to school reopening.
3.exactly 1 more week to HK trip with RC girls
4. need to catch up on BOF and SPAZZES;DBSK..WAAAYYY behind.
5.getting more and more cynical abt ALL types of r/s
6.i feel like i am getting fatter and fatter
7.i wish i can stop eating and have anorexia(i think i WILL)
8.i really am enjoying my job now(except for the feet pains)
9.i wanna try not talking for a day
10.i really wish i could die early (not before dbsk concert ofcoz)
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Friday, March 20, 2009
reatract!!!!
i take back my words...!! im soo in love with BOF again...and more in love with ji hoo more than ever!!! but love jun pyo also la.HAHHA.so....i dun deserve to be slapped.HAHAHHA.
side note....HK IS IN 2 WKSSS!!!
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side note....HK IS IN 2 WKSSS!!!
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top 10 things this wk...
1. its good to be alive someone i know...(not personally) is DYING!!!like seriously.(rc girls shld know what im talking abt)
2. however im sometimes still really pessimistic abt my life (although im kinda sinning here...but sometimes i think i am here on this earth to suffer)
3.when it rains it always pours.never drizzles.(and i don mean literally.as in one bad thing can just happen one after another)
4.however...there are ppl out there that could be ALOT worse off than me
5. there IS always a light at the end of the tunnel.and silver linning.(today was like THE worst day since i started work.however...LGEE totally cheered me up.yay lgee!!!! =D)
6.i really really irk public display of affections for BGR.if u know what i mean.(i mean holding hands etc is okay...budden this couple....or rather the guy...when he is talking or the girl is talking.he keeps touching the girl.her hair.her body.her hands.her face.OMGGGG!!bet he isnt really paying attention!!!)
7.i am wierdly enuf....getting tired and bored of BOF.i know...!!! shocking!! and i should like really be slapped for it or smth!! =(
8.i actually LIKE sitting on the mrt alone.eating alone.walking arnd alone.just having some "me time"im no longer self consious.wierdly.(being an observer freak as i am...i LOVEEE observing ppl.ppl watching if u may call it.except for the BGR thing mentioned above.)
9.im ACTUALLY starting to enjoy serving customers.ESPPP when im the ONLY promoter at night when all the other aunties have gone home.coz i OWN the sales floor.LOL.(i can say whatever i want not afraid of being scolded + can walk arnd freely serving customers EVERYWHERE in bedlinen and bedding + its a good "time-passer")
10.i MUST start depending/relying on god first.(since now....i kinda feel like most of my "good/best" friends are not really dependable.T.T)
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2. however im sometimes still really pessimistic abt my life (although im kinda sinning here...but sometimes i think i am here on this earth to suffer)
3.when it rains it always pours.never drizzles.(and i don mean literally.as in one bad thing can just happen one after another)
4.however...there are ppl out there that could be ALOT worse off than me
5. there IS always a light at the end of the tunnel.and silver linning.(today was like THE worst day since i started work.however...LGEE totally cheered me up.yay lgee!!!! =D)
6.i really really irk public display of affections for BGR.if u know what i mean.(i mean holding hands etc is okay...budden this couple....or rather the guy...when he is talking or the girl is talking.he keeps touching the girl.her hair.her body.her hands.her face.OMGGGG!!bet he isnt really paying attention!!!)
7.i am wierdly enuf....getting tired and bored of BOF.i know...!!! shocking!! and i should like really be slapped for it or smth!! =(
8.i actually LIKE sitting on the mrt alone.eating alone.walking arnd alone.just having some "me time"im no longer self consious.wierdly.(being an observer freak as i am...i LOVEEE observing ppl.ppl watching if u may call it.except for the BGR thing mentioned above.)
9.im ACTUALLY starting to enjoy serving customers.ESPPP when im the ONLY promoter at night when all the other aunties have gone home.coz i OWN the sales floor.LOL.(i can say whatever i want not afraid of being scolded + can walk arnd freely serving customers EVERYWHERE in bedlinen and bedding + its a good "time-passer")
10.i MUST start depending/relying on god first.(since now....i kinda feel like most of my "good/best" friends are not really dependable.T.T)
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
i work hard for the money~~
firstly...based on last week's lgee...i would like to thank god for answering the prayer with a yes for letting me get back my old job again.although tht means i wont be able to go for the cool sandcastle lgee outting or play ping pong with rach.(lol.) or watch DBSK concerts over and over again.i.e.choosey lover.=(
right now...my feet and shoulder aches like nuts.gees.who knew it would be like this?after working there before for 4 mths u'd think i'd be used to it alr.but NOOOO.still hurts.sighs...at least its 2 wks only.earn arnd 400++ bucks.oh well...enuff to cover the m'sia trip.hopefully christmas i can work there again?or the NEXT loonggg hols?i need to make up for the HK trip and...the mirotic concert if there is any.
hmm...not bad though...even though it was REALLYY boring there without my RCgirls arnd.HAHAH.but i did enjoy spending time by myself.like having lunch.walking arnd and stuff...i was the FIRST to arrive in the morning too.had the chance to look arnd at the new bedsheets for my brand.and sold something almost instantly.LOL.helped other brands to sell too.whoo hoo!~
i feel really bad for coming over to RC when the new aunty has to go over to the expo coz of that.but im not complaining since i dun wanna be the one.but i do feel guilty.coz she is NOTHING like the previous new aunty.she is REALLY nice and funny.unlike the other one.rc girls if u know who i am talking abt...>>>aunty jane!!!she REALLY gets on ppl's nerves.lol.
just another 2 more weeks or so to HK trip.we do need a face to face meeting girls.itenary and stuff.
excited for ocean park's theme park.LOL.levina passed the bug to me.however...i think i'd chicken out when i see it....thinking back to the flying coaster is getting me sick.
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right now...my feet and shoulder aches like nuts.gees.who knew it would be like this?after working there before for 4 mths u'd think i'd be used to it alr.but NOOOO.still hurts.sighs...at least its 2 wks only.earn arnd 400++ bucks.oh well...enuff to cover the m'sia trip.hopefully christmas i can work there again?or the NEXT loonggg hols?i need to make up for the HK trip and...the mirotic concert if there is any.
hmm...not bad though...even though it was REALLYY boring there without my RCgirls arnd.HAHAH.but i did enjoy spending time by myself.like having lunch.walking arnd and stuff...i was the FIRST to arrive in the morning too.had the chance to look arnd at the new bedsheets for my brand.and sold something almost instantly.LOL.helped other brands to sell too.whoo hoo!~
i feel really bad for coming over to RC when the new aunty has to go over to the expo coz of that.but im not complaining since i dun wanna be the one.but i do feel guilty.coz she is NOTHING like the previous new aunty.she is REALLY nice and funny.unlike the other one.rc girls if u know who i am talking abt...>>>aunty jane!!!she REALLY gets on ppl's nerves.lol.
just another 2 more weeks or so to HK trip.we do need a face to face meeting girls.itenary and stuff.
excited for ocean park's theme park.LOL.levina passed the bug to me.however...i think i'd chicken out when i see it....thinking back to the flying coaster is getting me sick.
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Friday, March 13, 2009
updates part 2 (the aftermath of m'sia trip)
okay.had my results.not too bad.ofcoz i really hope that levina wont be too upset abt her results alr and stop ignoring everyone arnd.sighs.makes me feel sad also and slightly frustrated.and im trying not to think abt it.although i cant say that i understand her.coz i havent been in her situation before.so i would be wrong also to say that i wish she'd stop being upset.as that is quite selfish of me to think only abt myself.=( sorry.
today had a REALLLYYY good and fun time with my lgee.hahahha.had lunch. and then played arcade for a while.and then went to watch race to witch mountain.super super nice show.action packed and all.and i found a $5 note on the floor!! whoo hoo! used it to treat my friends to popcorn.and then we went back to church as it was too early to have lgee.and so we played table tennis.has been since forever since i played that.so it was really fun.and also connected my mp3 player into the speaker and we listened to DBSK and other k music.whoo hoo! much to the horror of others though.hahahha.then went for dinner and had lgee.which was fun too!
totally love my lgee.!~
budden....our leader told us he broke up with his gf.and seriously....our hearts broke (the 3 girls there.me,rach,and dinah) ahhh! i hate r/s.why does this happen all the time.why isnt there really a happily ever after ending? it happens all arnd me all the time.and im sick and tired of feeling sad.be it happened to me or to others.sighs. so now we are trying ways to try and cheer him up.which i hope would work.but i know it wouldnt totally.coz it ALWAYS takes lots and lots of time to heal the wounds of a broken heart.esp when it seems that he is hurting more than his ex.seriously...those ARE one of the good things abt being single.sure this is an argumentative topic.but being single means that ur chances of getting hurt by an r/s is like....NIL!
on a random note. i am also sick and tired of wanting to ask ppl out during the hols.everytime they're like not free.and they didnt even take the initiative to ask me when they are! its like if someone asks me out and im not free.i'll tell them another day that i may be available.instead.some ppl are like.sorry not frree.fullstop.ends there.no stuff like.oh how abt next wk?i'll be free on xxx day.nope.none!sometimes i wonder if they secretly have a kick of like rejecting ppl and not following up making them seem damn busy is cool.-puke-so from now on i dun wanna initiate outings with my frens anymore.coz it really pisses me off.i dun care if im gona be bored and lonely during the hols.if they wanna go out.they initiate!just hope i get to work soon.so now i can say.sorry.im busy!
on a lighter note i watched the 2 new concerts i bought alr.had a marathon on my own.and OMG.how cute can they get!!!!! and in the 2nd jap live...although they arent as many hip movements.lol.but choosey lover was still awesome!!!!! and love their hairstyles there better then the t concert!
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today had a REALLLYYY good and fun time with my lgee.hahahha.had lunch. and then played arcade for a while.and then went to watch race to witch mountain.super super nice show.action packed and all.and i found a $5 note on the floor!! whoo hoo! used it to treat my friends to popcorn.and then we went back to church as it was too early to have lgee.and so we played table tennis.has been since forever since i played that.so it was really fun.and also connected my mp3 player into the speaker and we listened to DBSK and other k music.whoo hoo! much to the horror of others though.hahahha.then went for dinner and had lgee.which was fun too!
totally love my lgee.!~
budden....our leader told us he broke up with his gf.and seriously....our hearts broke (the 3 girls there.me,rach,and dinah) ahhh! i hate r/s.why does this happen all the time.why isnt there really a happily ever after ending? it happens all arnd me all the time.and im sick and tired of feeling sad.be it happened to me or to others.sighs. so now we are trying ways to try and cheer him up.which i hope would work.but i know it wouldnt totally.coz it ALWAYS takes lots and lots of time to heal the wounds of a broken heart.esp when it seems that he is hurting more than his ex.seriously...those ARE one of the good things abt being single.sure this is an argumentative topic.but being single means that ur chances of getting hurt by an r/s is like....NIL!
on a random note. i am also sick and tired of wanting to ask ppl out during the hols.everytime they're like not free.and they didnt even take the initiative to ask me when they are! its like if someone asks me out and im not free.i'll tell them another day that i may be available.instead.some ppl are like.sorry not frree.fullstop.ends there.no stuff like.oh how abt next wk?i'll be free on xxx day.nope.none!sometimes i wonder if they secretly have a kick of like rejecting ppl and not following up making them seem damn busy is cool.-puke-so from now on i dun wanna initiate outings with my frens anymore.coz it really pisses me off.i dun care if im gona be bored and lonely during the hols.if they wanna go out.they initiate!just hope i get to work soon.so now i can say.sorry.im busy!
on a lighter note i watched the 2 new concerts i bought alr.had a marathon on my own.and OMG.how cute can they get!!!!! and in the 2nd jap live...although they arent as many hip movements.lol.but choosey lover was still awesome!!!!! and love their hairstyles there better then the t concert!
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updates part 1 (gentings/KL trip)
hey ppl okay i'm spliting up my updates into 2.so i won bore u guys to death.basically went to m'sia with levina and her parents for 4 days and 3 nights.
day1:took at 8 hr ride up to gentings(inclusive of stop overs) reached gentings arnd 1 plus had lunch and then checked into the hotel and rested, refreshed ourselves and then went for dinner at pizza hut.really cheap there.almost half price...but the soup was AWFUL.and then walked arnd for a while.the parents wanted to show us arnd the casino.but guess what.ABOVE 21! and so was thinking that while they went to the casino...me and levina would go watch movie.jack neo's love matters.but guess what.the show there is M18!!! insane!so we just walked arnd instead.and we bought 3 hairbands.3 for 10 rm only! 2 for her 1 for me =)
day 2: KL!!!! so it was arnd 1 hr plus bumpy bus ride to KL.had lunch there and we were off to find the dbsk shop! it was our MAIN PURPOSE of the trip.and we found it! i think we almost spend like an hr in the shop or smth.LOL.we took a REALLY long time...or rather i took a really long time deciding what to buy.and in the end i spent 80+ sing dollars there!!! bought 1 junsu cartoon ver. tee, 2 concerts. (there first k.concert and there 2nd jap concert) and then 3 types of stickers.1 junsu (for me) 1 changmin (for rach) and 1 jae sticker and hp thing(for lynn).then we went walking arnd and i bought a bag!yay! first on my shopping list.-tick-wanted to buy a pair of shorts.but nomore cash at hand.HAHAHA.then we had dinner and it was back to gentings
day 3: another MAIN PURPOSE of the trip.THEME PARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!we started with slow stuff and then went on to greater for scary stuff.took one that almost made me go nuts with fear.i ALMOST cried.and TOTOALLY lost my ability to scream while on the ride.1. the cusion was really smelly.coz ur leaning forward kind. so i could hardly breathe.and 2. the handle was metal.and when ur nervous/scared ur hands tend to sweat.so DAMN hard to hang on.and we went upside down many times.so it was INSANE for me.LOL.anyways totally enjoyed it in the end.and we even had slight sun burn.LOL.its sooo funny since gentings is supposed to be abit cold and misty.weirdly enuf.but i really thank god that it was ultra sunny on that day.and the day before and the day after(that means the 2nd and 4th day rained like siao). we were extremly exausted with on and off headaches.and inbetween after dinner walked arnd the mall again and bought a pencil case -ticks off shopping list- and 1 earing for myself.4 earing for levina and 1 more for lynn.
day 4: time to go home.had a really lazy morning.slept time 10 plus.and then got ready for lunch and then head back to singapore.another 8 hr ride.on the way had stops and bought tons of tidbits for mummy and aunty sharon.still had some ringgit left...so no need to draw more money for hk trip.
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day1:took at 8 hr ride up to gentings(inclusive of stop overs) reached gentings arnd 1 plus had lunch and then checked into the hotel and rested, refreshed ourselves and then went for dinner at pizza hut.really cheap there.almost half price...but the soup was AWFUL.and then walked arnd for a while.the parents wanted to show us arnd the casino.but guess what.ABOVE 21! and so was thinking that while they went to the casino...me and levina would go watch movie.jack neo's love matters.but guess what.the show there is M18!!! insane!so we just walked arnd instead.and we bought 3 hairbands.3 for 10 rm only! 2 for her 1 for me =)
day 2: KL!!!! so it was arnd 1 hr plus bumpy bus ride to KL.had lunch there and we were off to find the dbsk shop! it was our MAIN PURPOSE of the trip.and we found it! i think we almost spend like an hr in the shop or smth.LOL.we took a REALLY long time...or rather i took a really long time deciding what to buy.and in the end i spent 80+ sing dollars there!!! bought 1 junsu cartoon ver. tee, 2 concerts. (there first k.concert and there 2nd jap concert) and then 3 types of stickers.1 junsu (for me) 1 changmin (for rach) and 1 jae sticker and hp thing(for lynn).then we went walking arnd and i bought a bag!yay! first on my shopping list.-tick-wanted to buy a pair of shorts.but nomore cash at hand.HAHAHA.then we had dinner and it was back to gentings
day 3: another MAIN PURPOSE of the trip.THEME PARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!we started with slow stuff and then went on to greater for scary stuff.took one that almost made me go nuts with fear.i ALMOST cried.and TOTOALLY lost my ability to scream while on the ride.1. the cusion was really smelly.coz ur leaning forward kind. so i could hardly breathe.and 2. the handle was metal.and when ur nervous/scared ur hands tend to sweat.so DAMN hard to hang on.and we went upside down many times.so it was INSANE for me.LOL.anyways totally enjoyed it in the end.and we even had slight sun burn.LOL.its sooo funny since gentings is supposed to be abit cold and misty.weirdly enuf.but i really thank god that it was ultra sunny on that day.and the day before and the day after(that means the 2nd and 4th day rained like siao). we were extremly exausted with on and off headaches.and inbetween after dinner walked arnd the mall again and bought a pencil case -ticks off shopping list- and 1 earing for myself.4 earing for levina and 1 more for lynn.
day 4: time to go home.had a really lazy morning.slept time 10 plus.and then got ready for lunch and then head back to singapore.another 8 hr ride.on the way had stops and bought tons of tidbits for mummy and aunty sharon.still had some ringgit left...so no need to draw more money for hk trip.
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
fangirling 9 (dbsk new mv)
hey ppl.i'll update abt my m'sia trip a little later yeah?
dbsk more impt?hahhha...nah just that its shorter and easier to post.i find them TOTALLY cute here...even micky!!! hahaha.love his hair!suits him totally.and nothing needs to be said for the rest =) although i find the song weird...
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dbsk more impt?hahhha...nah just that its shorter and easier to post.i find them TOTALLY cute here...even micky!!! hahaha.love his hair!suits him totally.and nothing needs to be said for the rest =) although i find the song weird...
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Saturday, March 7, 2009
fangirling part 8 ( dbsk "survivor & mirotic concert)
can i just say how awesome the concert looks and the more i wanna watch it now!!! OMG esp junsu and yunho's solos and mirotic and are u a good girl with tons of hips, and OFCOZ wrong number.and crazy love.OMG i have never seen them do a live for that song before.levina would be ecstatic!!and who can forget their old favs like rising sun and hug? OMGGG I SOOO TOTALLY MUSTTT GO FOR THE MIROTIC CONCERT!!and MUST buy the MIROTIC CONCERT DVD AS WELL.MUST!!! went almost INSANE just watching this 9 min preview.they must go to kl.how can they do this to me?if not mummy must lemme go to bangkok or taiwan to watch...i would even go to lapland (sorry just that i have been rewatching snow queen.hahah) or the north pole
and ofcoz their new jap song which...as usual...grow on me after i hear it for a few more times.survivor.really catchy...kinda don like the mv.but the live is good.cant wait for the album to come out.and hopefully it wont cost like 78 dollars as what i saw on the web.
last entry before im off to m'sia.hopefully there is the mirotic concert dvd there alr?hahah.-fingers crossed-
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and ofcoz their new jap song which...as usual...grow on me after i hear it for a few more times.survivor.really catchy...kinda don like the mv.but the live is good.cant wait for the album to come out.and hopefully it wont cost like 78 dollars as what i saw on the web.
last entry before im off to m'sia.hopefully there is the mirotic concert dvd there alr?hahah.-fingers crossed-
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