notes

on a brighter note
-enjoyed the 2 days out of school.although its passing real fast
-got the secret code album alr.love the non-stop hits.
-love the poster

on a darker note
-still unsure abt everything
-feel like im not myself lately
-i am...or used to be someone who laughs alot.now im such a critical cynic.
-really need to know what i want
-really not ready to go to school.

church notes
learnt something in church today that is totally me right now.they say some ppl wear "sunglasses" so like no matter how "bright" it actually is right now....it seems always "dark" to them.they wont be able to see the "light at the end of the tunnel". yes that how it seems to be to me lately.i really need to take off my "sunglasses".

these thoughts needs to end soon.and according to my mum.only i can decide for myself.

=bell=

yesterday today tomorrow 2

ytd
-ate seoul gardens.yumm!!!
-but totally spoils my whole diet thing.so ate bread from four leaves.also coz too full
-don think i would like csas3
-found out that dbsk may be still having their concert in KL afterall.unfortunately not in dec.but either in sept,oct or nov.hope not nov =( its not the school holidays! but apparently...it is in KL so alot of ppl are voting for nov.

today
-didnt talk much.battle of thoughts in my head.
-feels TONS better when i reached home.

tmr
-collecting DBSK jap album secret code.yay!cant wait to see poster and pics
-do more research on FPQA.
-2 days away from school

what differentiates a friend from a good friend?
everyone needs a friend.i know i practically depend on them.BUT.is it
possible not to have any friends?
its better to have loved and lost than never loved at all...thats what ppl say.but i say.i'd rather have never loved then there wont be any loss...or any pain in the first place.
as i grow older...i become less happy.i wonder why.mayb coz i think too much.too deep.i shld keep things simple.and not worry too much?

=bell=

yesterday,today,tomorrow

yesterday
-no school
-got my pay!!
-went out with lynn
-watched 17 again...AGAIN!awesome show.wan the vcd.
-bought earrings.again.

today
-start of sch
-draggy...=(
-start lessons alr.esp the really boring one PBL.tryna research now...think i'll just die this sem.
-met vivian to pass her some stuff i bought so far from KL,HK, turkey etc.miss her lots.almost cried when we parted.hmm...
-went tamp1.nothing much.uniclo was really messy.no Q though.weekday i suppose.awesome food joints there.
-really tired now

tmr
-another day of sch.
-draggy =(

i cant wait for the 3 years of poly to be over.just another 2 more left.and again i ask myself this question..why did i choose this course?what am i gonna do in the future?i was blinded.
and also..its hard for me to battle with the thoughts in my head.but i will be strong.and stick to what i planned for the reopening of the new sch term.

=bell=

fangirling 10 (funny junsu and latest ft island perf.)

this is the latest ft island live perf for missing you.thank goodness hongki has gone back to his straight hair and not the goo jun pyo curly type.but...he looks girly now =( still cant believe he is ONLY 19/20!LOVEEE the music intro at the begining.love this song!


this is junsu tryna embarass himself!LOL.but its sooo hilarious esp wearing that cloak thing!and the yoosu moments!!!??!?!nooo....but its cute!

i'll take all the credit!

welcome to my new skin!
i took almost 2 hrs tryna modify everything.still really a newbie at this.everything was added by me.the tagboard.the imeem.the 3 pics.1 for everypost.1 that junsu's laughing and 1 of all 5 dbsk members moving image.i even added the heading and everything.ahhh! hard work it is.and really frustrating too when it is done wrongly and gotta redo everything.overall really pleased with myself.mayb i shld make my own blog skin one day =)

=bell=

since back from holidays

=levina had a sleep over at my hse.awesome!(watched BOF and DBSK concerts =))
=got new school time table
=got into first choice cds.sociology.same as levina and yvonne.yay.
=still dreading school.and dont want the holidays to end
=still kinda pissed at jy.
=really really cant wait to get my hands on the mirotic concert dvd.even better if i could watch them live
=its gonna be a year in july/aug since i have fallen in love with junsu and dbsk.although it feels longer than that
=wants dbsk's new jap album!
=watched 17 again starring zac efron today.awesome show!! he is more handsome and cute than ever.and i think he acted well in the show.
=addicted to going overseas.or rather getting away from singapore to a colder country.
=<3>
=i still feel the way i felt before i left for hk
=my transformation has started

=bell=

10 days in turkey

things i discovered in/about turkey

1.it is a 99% muslim country
2.wierdly....there are TONS of stray dogs arnd...tagged and well taken care of!!!
3.the food is not that fantastic
4.has a really really really long history!all the way back to BC!
5.there is alot of unused land
6.the apple tea is really nice!!! i bought some back.as in the real apple tea not pokka kind
7.i dont like turkish delights.too sweet!
8.their culture is a mix of malays, indians,europeans.
9 their technology has 2 extreme
10.love the scenary there

=bell=

highlights of hk

highs
1.esprit outlet!ultra cheap stuff!
2.disney land fire works
3.mango desserts!!!!
4.ferry ride
5.tram ride
6.wierd hong kong camera man!

lows
1.really freaking squeezy plane(budget mahhh)
2.soooo tiring...esp legs
3.low budget(would love to buy more clothes)
4.expensive food
5.too little time?

see ya till i come back from turkey!

see ya in 2 wks ppl!

well...this would prolly be my last entry before i head off for 2 holidays. last day working at rc was sun.since this time round the rc girls werent working together.i relied mostly on the aunties there.esp 2.and leaving them made me feel a litle sad.i will really miss the gossiping with hashim as well.i wanna have a gay best friend.lol.and the really funny ahmad.

today the 3 'L'ders are gonna have another dbsk concert marathon.waiting for the other 2's arrival.bought the ready made kimchi fried rice paste just to test out.so ofcoz u guessed it, gonna make kimchi fried rice.

then in another 12 hrs or less its off to HK ppl!!!and right aft HK 1 day later, is turkey!awesome!the rc girls are gonna stay over as our flight is as early as 6.30am therefore we gotta be there by 4.30 am.gosh.-faints-

sighs...i hope that these 2 holidays away would help me clear my head and find myself.i would definately enjoy it much since its a step away from reality for almost 2 weeks.mayb i'd never face up to reality after that and just let matters pass in the end and become my happy self back.

and im sooo wayyy wayyy behind BOF.and its gonna be the last epis soon...is it this week?crap.i don even know where i stopped anymore.

oh yeah and REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY disappointing news...I CANT GO FOR THE DBSK CONCERT!!!!! T.T!!its like in june in bangkok.NOT DURING THE SCH HOLS!...unless by some miracle dec they ARE having it in KL or else my chances are like zilch.mayb another trip up to kl anyways to get the concert dvd?anyone wanna come?lol.

bell

inspired one morning....

at the cross-roads
at the point of no return
what was lost can never be found
is there no one left around?

fanning the flames of hurt
as the sparks of anger
ignites the fire of sadness
is there no one else?

im at a masquerade
at a hide and seek parade
except no one can find me
where have i gone?