as her eyes closed
her body consumed into slumber
her mind resists
it continues to wander

her mind stays wide awake
and goes into another place
her emotions joins in
things take a turn for the worst

few hours later her eyes meet the morning light
her body recharged
her mind exahusted
preoccupied

she won't let her mind rest
no. not after that
she pushes it hard with work
distractions help her destress.

everytime im in solitude
thats when i feel alone
cold
destitute.

everytime im alone and without
i change my mind
i close my eyes and ears
running away seems best

everytime its just me
thoughts stream in
imagination runs wild
doubts take over.

everytime im on my own
hiding seems the most comfortable
feigning seems the easiest
shuting up seems right.

Q&A with Lorelle Ang

ahahhas. doing this tag by dom from fb of Q&As coz i am finally slightly more free =)

TEN ARE YOURS
1. Are you single – No? =x
2. Are you happy – Yupps
3. Are you bored – nope. life is busy as a beeee.
4. Are you fair – im tanned. but i want to be fair!
5. Are you Italian – nope. but love italian food =P
6. Are you intelligent - DUH~HAHAH
7. Are you honest – i tell white lies
8. Are you nice - very very. especially if we're close
9. Are you Irish - nope. but i love their accent.
10. Are you Asian - totally

TEN FACTS

1. Full Name - Ang Tai Foon Lorelle
2. Nicknames – Lorry, Bell, Typhoon, more....
3. Birth place - China
4. Hair color - black but nt black with red (now brown) highlights
5. Natural hair style – Straight long hair w bangs (planning on changing soon)
6. Eye Color - Dark Brown?black?
7. Birth Date – 15 November 1991
8. Favourite hang out spot - Home, Ion, 313, cineleisure,
9. Favorite colors – Purple, Grey, Red, Yellow, White, Black
10. Places you’d like to visit - Europe, Korea, UK, Japan, HK

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love - Yes.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – Yes.
3. Do you currently have a crush? –NA i alr said im nt single right?
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - YES T.T
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart – unfortunately =/
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - YES T.T
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – who hasnt?
8. Are you afraid of commitment – slightly?
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – cnt rmb.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer – neither. unless beer is hoegarden if nt cocktail pls...
3. Cats or dogs - BOTH =D
4. A few best friends or any regular friends – Few best friends.
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Crunchy.
6. Pencil or Pen – Pen.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – Romantic Night in
8. Money or Happiness – Happiness.
9. Night or day – Night. dun like sun.
10. IM or phone – Phone.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – nope. im guai.
2. Seen a polar bear – yes
3. Done something you regret – hmmm.....
4. Bungee jumped – Never want to.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - ofcoz =x
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - wads that?
7. Been caught naked – nope.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - nope
9. Cried because you lost a pet – yes. when i was young and my cat got a hit and run accident.
10. Wanted to disappear – hmmm...


TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - doesnt matter?
2. Light or dark hair – doesn't really matter to me.
3. Hugs or kisses - both. teehee.
4. Shorter or taller - TALLER.
5. Intelligence or attraction – Both.
6. Topman or Zara – doesnt matter
7. Funny or serious - knows how to make me laugh. but knows when to be serious.
8. Older or Younger - older. max 2 yrs younger.
9. Outgoing or quiet – Outgoing.
10. Sweet or Bad - sweet. have enough of bad boys.


TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes, tons.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – Yes.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – no.
4. Ever been to a rock concert – yes! FTISLAND. ( r they rock?)
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – Nope.
6. Ever been on a dance team – Nope.
7. Ever been on a sports team – nope.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production – yupps.
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? nope. underaged.
10. Ever been in a rap video? – nope.


TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - Mum.
2. Last person you hugged - ahahhas. him =x
3. Last person you hung out with - Tam Tam Girls!
4. Last time you worked - Last yr Sept. unless OSIP is counted.
5. Last person you talked to - mum.
6. Last person you IM’d - him
7. Last person you texted - Rachel (G)lee
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – him
9. Last person/thing you missed - many many.
10. Last website visited - FB

our fate lies with god.

the world is really small. SINGAPORE is even smaller. LOL.
ytd found out that my pri sch fren is my sec sch junior's bf. LOL. honestly the link is more complicated than this. but wont elaborate. THAT is alr cool enuf =)

its funny how fate works in our life. how god plan's our lives. u see. if my sec sch friend. NEVER went JC first than drop out to poly...he would have never met his nw gf.
our life has been planned out by god. he gives us choices to make. but already knowing which path we'd take. so lift all worries up to him. and leave everything in his hands and he knows wads best for us.

wed was a busy busy day. did sensory evaluation. hmmm more improvements to be done ofcoz. but more imptly for lynn's pudding....i pray for everyone's MP or FYP whatever.

the week is coming to an end agn. and my taste buds have not recovered =/ lose my appetite whenever that thought comes to mind. sighs.
and i have been craving ALOT for ice cream lately. i feel like eating magnum. i feel like eat the walls lime ice vanilla filling one i feel like eating the 3 flavours tgt gotcha one. i feel like eating conetto. i feel like eating sticky chewy chocolate. i feel like eat durian ice cream. rawr.

more more more rest this weekend.yay.

i predict. ND would be hard for me to study. i keep falling aslp in lect =_= zzzz.

i wanna go shopping~! i wanna watch HP =( se7en is having free singing tmr @ mandrin gallery orchard. FREE.sighs.

goodbye hell week

hahahas. now i know my limits. sleepy is really the most impt lifestyle to me. ahhahas.
i cannot have less than 6 hrs sleep over 3 days straight esp when im already sick with low immunity. yeah yeah. call me weak. or spoilt or whatever.perhaps next time it would be worst. but for now. just let me be.

but i haf to say. its rather fun. to experience total burnout or exhaustion. and honestly. its not that i had tired myself out for nothing. i had fun and did many many many things during this time. although slp had to be sacrificed. there is no choice....this is the lifestyle of my beloved FT, DBSK and UKISS. T.T

so here was the schedule for the week

thurs
tp rawks @ 7.30 @ night did CCN day cookies till 2.45am.

fri
tp rawks @ 7.30 lunch @11 did icing and MP till 4pm. CCN day. then UKISS concert q@6PM show start @ 8pm. ended @10.30 reach home. bathed. did MP slept @ 1.30. stupid me.

sat
GI symposium @ 8 finished @ 1. showed MP stuff to company SUP. ate lunch. did ND project. met up with GV loves @ 7. reached home 11pm. did MP =_= till 1am. totally seh alr.

sun
skipped church =x slept till 12pm. ate lunch bathe. slept till 4pm. studied 1 hr. slept another 2 hrs till dinner. total shit. have quiz next day. slept @ 12

mon
woke up @10. studied. went to sch ate lunch. did MP. studied a little. had tut. quiz time. EFFING screwed up. zzzz. getting overit now. and now doing MP.

idk abt u. but seeing u smile and be happy. makes me the happiest.

u-KISSED.

im damn tired.
and im supposed to quickly rush and do my work and catch up on my slp.

but i just got kissed. *gasp* i got u-kissed. ahahhahs.
sighs. a reminder why i never like combined concerts esp if im going just for one grp. stood for 3.5 hrs before i gt to see ukiss. u kiss sang 5 songs though and talked to us. kekeke. i think i have become ELI biased.OOPS =X couldnt really see either coz i was too short....zzz planned to wear heels today actually but then had so many things on that prevented that from happening.
and then everyone took out their cams instantly when ukiss came onstage it blocked me! i tip toed for 1 hr! but still cnt see full body. then only soohyun came closer to the front of the stage once. then never happened again...they kept standing towards centre or back =_=
didnt get to pass kevin my gift! grrrr couldnt find the gift box....

ahhh....no time to update on my life at the mo. racing against time for MP.

it doesnt take much to make me happy
it just takes you and me

it doesnt take much to make me smile
just a smile from u to me

it doesnt take much to touch my heart
just something simple and small

it doesnt take much to make me shed a tear
just a tear or two from you

it doesnt take much to tear me apart
just a heartbreak from you

it doesnt take much for me to stick to love
just your true heart will do

~EM OT YADHTRIB YPPAH

*note: blog title is the copyright idea of levina tay

pampered myself a little ytd. did my own mini facial @ hm...seaweed clay mask is DAEBAK.

zzz hope im nt falling sick...have sore throat. then now keep sneezing...hope there wont be flu once again...zzz D:
today was an AWESOME DAY. why? coz its my bdae. LOL. nahhh.....coz we are seeing success in our products! lynn+michelle finally have another successful pudding flavour and levina+me are improving on the texture of our cookies =)

is it coz its my bdae today? thats why when i woke up this morning i felt so happy and energetic? i think i laughed so much today. ahahha. more than usual...wait. so was ytd. ahahs.

had only 1 lect today then went for TPRAWKS briefing....omg! i have to go to sch @ freaking 7am on thurs and fri and 8am on sat. and its causing me probs alr. EKS! what haf i gotten myself into....ah wells. last sem in TP. should throw myself into any TP activities i can do...

ahaha. FB is gd on ur bade....lotsa GVSS juniors and even pri sch friends wish me happy bdae so i get to talk with em abit which i usually dont. wow. alot of em in TP. =) esp my dearest choir juniors...

anyways went to cafe cartel for dinner today. wee~ free brownie + icecream on ACTUAL birthday day~ YUM. we all shared. so they dont need to spend more money to buy cake =)
i feel so bad coz they paid for my dinner too. which isnt necessary since they bought me a bag too! NICE BAG BTW. kekeke. and we kept laughing!

ahhh im so full and sleepy nw... my eyes....ooo tmr gg to sch late abit =D and gg jogging. yup. need to. otherwise all the cake im eating these few days. OMG. ahaahhaha.

life is unpredictable. its funny how this is always in my head....but one moment someone could be there and the next. gone. so treasure every single moment that u have with family and friends and loved ones. for u never know when its the last.

thank you lord for giving me such wonderful family and friends. although i may not have everything in the world. and may not be able to get all i want, i am thankful for everything and for me to be born in 1991.
"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever."
Psalm 107:1 (NIV)

"What shall I render unto the LORD for all his benefits toward me?
I will take the cup of salvation, and call upon the name of the LORD.
I will pay my vows unto the LORD now in the presence of all his people."
Psalm 116:12-14 (KJV)

fangirling 67

woo! its 6 days left to the concert...but according to eli's tweet, 5days for em to come to SG. that means they'll be arriving on thurs night! OH.MY.GOSH. how. freaking. exciting. KYYAA. and he said that he wants to come to SG and buy blackberry cassing...shld i get one for him?!
awww....ukiss is gonna have their goodbye stages soon T.T oh well...kinda sick of that song alr =P nt the perf though..was hoping they'll get perf their other songs. or have a full track of before yesterday

jyj's showcase concert in new york looks awesome. PLUS with yoochun's new cropped haircut. looks tons younger now & junsu and jae's new hair colours, totally awesome! and im so touched to see the "red ocean" in NYC T.T and to see the ang moh's comment at the end....i got goosebums. im so proud of em.


its quite sad hw they need to pay for all the advertisements of their showcase themselves, since they dont have a management team anymore and also their "working visas" to enter USA were rejected so they had to cancel alot of their showcases...but they felt bad to cancel all so they paid some of the costings to have the concert so as nt to disappoint their fans

and guess wad....jae and yunho still talk! woohoo. and so does changmin and junsu? smth like that la....proofs that DBSK is still on good terms with each other! yayness. that means that i can still look forward to their reunion in like 10 yrs time? =P

selfish?

this week has been much of a drama.....
realised the last time i blogged was wed

wed:
the longest day of the week EVER. had APEL @ 8am...then did MP all the way till 6....technically we were practically wasting time since mdm K is always uncontactable and we kept needing our whey protein....if nt we dont have ingredients! so we were only in the lab for 2 hrs. then went jogging. LIKE FINALLY. the longest time i ever jogged man! i was shocked. left sch to BR @ 6.45 came back to sch @7.40! worst, i had to reach church by 8! zzz so late alr. so didnt eat proper dinner. just grabbed a bite from mr bean...cheese pancake. YUM. RUSHED back @ 10.30 only to find out there is no pops in seoul =( and then found out star golden bell is nw pushed back to 12.20....so i studied ND all the way till 12.20....watched a little of SGB and was kinda boring so went to slp...zzz LONG DAY.

thurs:
weee had PDM lab....kekeke green tea swiss roll was TERRIBLE for the first trial. but second trial we improved =) but still improvements must be made




was kinda chaotic coz there were some ingredients that they said they will get for us then in the end dont have or they say they never order~ so we had to quickly go out and get it ourselves etc. the chef is nice though...kekeke and i enjoy calling out "yes chef!" ahahah....like PASTA or like HELL'S KITCHEN. but he is kinda scary and strict sometimes..
then also found out smth abt MP lab....everyone gt a warning letter when its nt even our fault. the whole day we were like wtf wtf wtf while discussing it...lol. we went to ask mr see and he was like "dont worry..." =_=

friday
had test early in the morning...already haf a few careless mistakes here and there =_=...totally forgot to revise in the morning...LOL. too busy enjoying music and singing along... then had CSAS ppt...ah these 2 finally over...like a huge sigh of relief.
on top of that found out that they canceled our warning letter alr coz the REAL culprits admitted to their mistake =x
then plus had no ND lab today since tr alr gave us the proj. briefing on tues. =) so...i went out...watched megaminds. OMG.....boring like duno wad. LOL. yeah sure there were SOME funny moments but more moments where i wanted to slp. zzzz =/ plus it was 10 buckss?!
teehee. never the less....its the company that made it gd...

hmmm tmr....nt that there are lotsa things to do...just that its time consuming...zzz
plus gotta chiong my straw hearts...LOL. shld fold even while slping =P

wad a diff THAT one day made....but why do i foresee more obstacles to come? nth is smooth sailing anyways...
zzz mayb im too selfish?




could it be you?