distraught

i am utterly speechless and distraught.im going crazy with waves of tears.i duno what to think now....it seems like dbsk and sm cannot come to an agreement and emotions are running high. i just really wont know what to do if dbsk really disbands. i mean...its coming to their 6th year anniversary soon.and its been 1 year since i knew abt them. and during that 1 year. my world has been revolved arnnd them. what am i gonna do if they just disband so suddenly becoz of this silly thing?! both sides say they wanna settle this asap.but why is things going so slowly? its coming to 5 days alr! if only yunho and changmin remains whats the point? its not dbsk anymore. i mean even though i totally love yunho and jae isnt my fav person in the world...but all 5 of em belong together.
as quoted from cassiopeia, dbsk official fanclub :"The group's continued existence is more important than SM." dbsk's fan club holds the Guiness World Record for the largest fan club with around 800K members.They began an 'Against TVXQ's Disbandment' petition on an Internet portal site. This petition that aims to collect 200K signatures has already collected 20K in the past four days.

ofcoz...nothing is official.but i cant help but let the news get to me.

i was thinking no matter what i shld go and see the shanghai concert this oct.even if it means i am going alone (most prob with mummy) coz it could be the last time seeing them together?!?!?! u never know. i dun wanna regret anything just like how i still regret not going to a SINGLE westlife concert last time.unfortunately....the tickets are ALREADY sold out!!! within 2 days! and the shanghai concert is the fastest selling so far. is it coz of the light of recent events?
i envy kar young. she got to see yunho and changmin that u think abt it....could it be that it was only yunho and changmin up close at a restaurant while they were having dinnner...come to think of it...mayb the reason why only the 2 were there is coz the other 3 were discussing abt this issue?
and to think i was waiting for their comeback stage to korea soon.
all 5 of my dbsk oppas must be really tired and drained emotionally and mentally.i mean as a fan i feel like this alr. imagine how they must be feeling since they are the one going through it and still have to put on a happy and brave front for the fans.

sighs this really is a mood spoiler isnt it. really in no mood to do anything gonna have an early night and cry myself to sleep

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