tmr i am gg to the aust. uni open hse. how time flies and now i need to decide on what i want to do for the next league of my life. i am someone who hates changes after i have gotten used to and gotten comfortable with what i have. i am someone who dont adapt to changes easily.
i know u may say i am a coward. or i am not independent enough or whatever. but the thing is... i am scared to go overseas. to leave the ones i love behind. to leave the friendships and relationships behind. and be alone. esp if levina doesnt go with me. i mean who's to know what will become of those when i come back in 2 yrs time? i know prolly 2 yrs is a fast time. but. who's to say what can happen between this time?
as for now. i am needing a break from all this. things are spiralling downwards and soon we wont be able to communicate anymore. i am becoming too complacent. i need to put up my defence system once again. or else. the one to get hurt the most would be me.
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