anyways, the new life in uni. seems much less of the life i knew.pure carefree joy is like a luxury for me. because its so hard to come by. what would it be like if i had not chosen this path? i have always wondered to myself. how different would it be? would i really have much more joy than this? infact....stress is like a cheap sales now. because in cheap sales...u get more things that what u actually planned to get. so im getting more 'stress' than i really want...or need.
anyways....i am a person who finds it very hard to make decisions. but when i have made up my mind...i m not one to change it. however. there is this one issue that breaks the norm. this issue is a deviant. it is when it concerns issues of the heart. for years i have never been able to break out of this web. and recently....or rather mayb nt so recently...it the web just got thicker. just add another to the unsolvable equation. -_-; for the most unexpected. ha. i doubt anyone really reads this now anwyays. its just my avenue to rant.
but through this hell hole. i feel so much better everytime i spend any free time i got with you,although mayb its nt so often. its almost wierd to be true. i wonder how u would act if u knew. coz i knw u prolly dont feel the way i do.
when i m free i really gotta sort things out man. my heart is really so messed up. i dont even know where these thoughts suddenly come from.
so this is how i always feel when i dream about u....bittersweet...
wait....now this is which you?
u see the funny thing is....in the end....i wont be with either two. thats the saddest part.
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