just one direction

if only all of us have the direction/purpose we have in life from the day we are born..and our whole life we would be running towards that and not be wasting time wondering if the path we are on right now is the right one. and right now im still struggling...with 20 yrs of my life already passed by...

on a brighter note ytd marked our 6 mths :) but we had our 6th month-versary meal at shangri-la rasa sentosa for buffet breakfast...did not take any pics but here is the interior. had a very satisfactory time together. although i would say that the price is quite high for a breakfast...but the ambience and his company was enough to compensate. 

we wore, my so called version of our evisu couple tee today :)

everything just seems so right. 

just like today and everyday

the comfort in you hugs

and love in your eyes

this time it will be the last

ahead

we are always asked to think ahead. the goal in mind. but how often do we really practice that? even i...have lost that goal that i tried reaching for. and now its more "like a live for the moment" days. but yet. there really isnt much time left. im growing older. going out into the society is soon. time is running out. age is creeping up. but what does the future hold for me? 

and to put thinking ahead into another context. think before u speak. and this too. how often do we really think about the consequences of out speech. what hurt we may inflict. or how the other person would feel about it. and funny enough. its away the hurtful or blunt or necessary things that we are so quick to say out. and too late to take the words back. and yet. the good things we hold in back inside. or take too long to consider if we shld say it that the moment or opportunity has passed. why is that? 

what is the point in saying all those words? to make urself feel good abt urself? to make urself feel superior over others? that means selfishness. because everything is abt "me" and not abt how the other person would feel. but how would that reflect ur upbringing? that ur spoilt? or that ur parents r the same? once again. selfishness. 

but ofcoz we are all human. its normal to say things without thinking. including myself. its smth hard to change. but perhaps...if we start thinking more about others. and less about ourselves. things would be different. sure you may argue u r just being straight forward. take it or leave it. but there is a difference between that. and saying things for the sake of saying it. to have the last say in things. just stop and think. are those words really necessary?

and perhaps. the EQ thing about genders....guys lesser than girls isnt true. that is just a stereotype. coz im pretty sure i know a girl who has about as low as ZERO EQ. at least i didnt say negative. 

weekend spent with bliss

a really fruitful and happy weekend spent. friday went to buy dear's brother's birthday present 

then sat morning baked my favourite chocolate chip cookies for dear and his family...technically only his bro n him would eat anyways hahas

then at night we gave his bro a birthay dinner treat! saboten at T1 and swensen's banana split at T2. hahas well...saboten is rly just katsu and katsu. they shld have more sides. and swensen's banana was unripe! >< the horror. but as always sticky chewy chocolate was awesome :) well the pictures below are from the internet...but it was rly what we ate too. we forgot to take pictures :/

and finally sunday today...spent 3 hrs in the kitchen cooking dinner! with dear as my helper. hehes :D tried out my uncle's ngoh hiang recipe for the first time...been on a ngoh hiang craze recently. ahahha. ofcoz there was like a billion other dishes too...like ABC soup, stir fried sweet potato leaves, korean chilli grilled chicken...i attempt to try expanding my knowledge of cooking more dishes. haha.

and the best thing abt spending so long in the kitchen is when the ppl u cook for enjoys it :) 

sure we have out disagreements and unhapiness and fights. but in the end. what matters is that we are still happy. and i know i am to have you :) 

but now it is back to reality. school tmr. ah just the thought of it sucks. zzz  :'(

the power of two

really enjoyed today's sermon :) 
finally a speaker who actually tells jokes that are funny and catches the attention of the congregation well. 


today is all abt the power of two. the power of relationships. and no it is not only abt husbands and wives or BGR. but between family members and friends too. really meaningful. 


we live in a perfectionist word. focusing on how we can perfect something and not abt how we achieved it. and really the perfect example would be school grades. not many ppl are perfectly contented with what they have. if they had a B they would be upset tt they didnt get a B+ if it was a B+ they wld be upset they didnt get an A. 


and another, this is really something that i totally see in many, a good leader is someone who looks at the mirror when he achieves smth. but a great leader is someone who looks in the mirror when he fails and at people when he achieves smth. well....this isnt the exact words...but something along those lines.


mini-holiday over tmr. and its back to school. >_< and then its the start of smth that sounds so cheem alr. industrial research techniques =_= 


been eating and getting temperamental too much this few days. still. really hate PMS =_=


to be able to properly live your life, you gotta put aside your past. or your past will live in ur present and future. your past will live your life for you. 


   

to live and breathe another day.

We tend to get so caught up in the complicated we forget to be thankful for the simple. 


on a side note, was discussing with friends abt science and baking. yes it  was, is and will always be facinating to me. really miss studying that in poly. makes me question myself yet again what am i doing here now. no i dont regret taking my course in poly. but maybe uni...yes. 

Patience. thats all it takes. or maybe the chinese word seems more appropriate too. 忍. seems simple. but possibly one of the hardest task. 


but yet surely it is important. otherwise it wont be a fruit of the spirit. becoz God knows what is best for us.  

caught in the middle

blood is thicker than water. that's how the saying goes. i too hope that it would come true. 


i know it would take a while...for the sun to melt the cold ice away from the hardened heart. not impossible. but how long the 'a while' is...i dare not predict. 


this is hard on everyone. however the worst thing is. the most impt person doesnt seem  the least bit bothered. nor doing anything. that just makes me so mad. 
wait...thinking abt it...NONE of them are doing anything coz they are like peas in a pod. same stubborness. am i the only one who bothers?? i guess i have to let nature take its own course and worry on my own....

no matter what a family is a family. and i will still be the one that is different. 

a new start

went and came back from korea. that one yr of waiting and planning just gone in 5 days. and now perhaps the whole cycle starts again. korea is a place i can never get tired of. the food, the shopping the environment...perhaps it is becoz i dont stay there. despite gg seoul twice alr. i still havent covered the whole of seoul, the places i want to go cnt imagine trying to cover the whole of s.korea! do tourist see Singapore the same way? ofcoz im sure covering whole of singapore in 5 days wont be an issue...and although korea's train is older...its better than singapore's! and free wifi at almost everywhere in seoul! 

and then it was back to school. a whole new year. just 1 more year...and i would graduate. im sure this yr would past fast. it better be...as each day passes...it gets more unbearable. and then it would be a whole new journey and adventure for me. ofcoz despite the new journey, im pretty sure a few people, ok 3 ppl in my life will still be there :) 


a view of the clouds from the plane...isnt nature just so awesome and amazing? 

life with you doesnt seem like a bed of roses...because there are hardly thorns! it seems like a bed of clouds instead :) so soft and fluffy and always cushioning my fall. and when there are strikes of lightning, it would just go through the clouds like nth happen. sometimes it would rain...but the clouds would always form back again. <3

growing old

when searching for pictures, even looking at pictures of strangers made me tear. how often do you see old couples still so loving like this? 
im sure it is still possible. just that it seems to be getting more rare. or is it the cynicism in us that prefer thinking otherwise. 


i wonder how i would be when i grow old. how i would behave how i would look like. perhaps a burden. or perhaps well taken care of. it feels so long more to go. another 40 yrs or more. but yet looking back. 20 years of my life has just passed like that. another 20 will just pass me by just as fast. 


will i just be stuck in this mundane life? or would i be able to do something more meaningful with it for the next 20 years?


and just as importantly... i hope we will be like the couple in this picture. old and grey with wrinkles. yet. the twinkle and love in the expression says it all. 

happy go lucky

it has always been the case. that when i get overly happy, smth bad would go awfully wrong. just like the day i recieved my results. thinking abt tt now makes me suddenly pessimistic. what if its not a chain reaction thing anymore but more of a 'drop bomb' kinda thing. what i mean is that the bad things dont happen so often but when its bad it really is bad. >< 


the next best thing would be if Lders were schooling tgt. that would be so perfect to a T. then perhaps even more amusing things would happen 


so there is this thing that i just must blog about. becoz everytime i remember it i cnt help but laugh to myself


a scene in school:
me: lynnette i need to get my laptop from locker. accompany me?
lynn: okay~ 
(when we reached locker area)
me: no one here. so dark and scary...
i walked toward the locker and started to unlock my lock when i realised eh...where is lynn??
me: lynnette! where r u ??
lynn: here~~ (as she emerges from behind the lockers)
me: hahaha why u walk one big round for?
lynn: i wanted to scare u...
me: then why did u even respond when i asked where r u??? LOLOL
lynn: oh ya LOLOL


another funny scenario w eugene dear


at the steamboat place:
eugene: i want to cook soft boil egg and eat w the udon. like i make my own type of ban mian
me: ok i help you aft we clear the ingredients in the pot
while clearing the ingredients he ate it w his noodles. when i started to cook the egg....he realised he finished the noodles alr. 
me: okay can cook the egg alr :)
eugene: yay! then i can eat with my noodles....which i finished alr....
WAKAKAK. LOLOL.


anyways bottom line is. im rly so happy this mth. blissful too if i might add. i count my blessings every time <3

reflecting

i am finally blogging a long overdue post. if i were to look back on the past month i have probably learnt this...

blogger has a new layout format. hopefully this works better than the previous. still takes some getting used to.

and as much as i am of an open book...

luckily my eyes don't turn green everytime i get jealous.

or blue when im sad

or red when im angry.

nevertheless....i guess im still an open book. 

but on another note. things are looking positive now :) 

like i said the making up probably makes all the quarrels worth it. and on top of it makes us closer and more concious of each other's needs. 

and i got rly big shoes to fill in terms of cooking .__. stress!

and on a more religious note. really good to catch up with LGee girls today! 

and smth yu ru said rly makes sense. everytime we feel down and discouraged or keep looking down on ourselves. it is a spiritual attack from the devil. coz he wants to take away our significance, our self worth and our self smth smth. so we shld pray and ask for peace and calmness in our hearts. 

also i guess it really is important for god to be the centre and the pillar of support for all relationships. i really think it makes a difference. and im really glad that we're working towards that :)