post christmas.

wow. i hate poly having only 2 weeks. or rather i hate TP having only 2 weeks. because SP has 3.

i cant believe that in less than a week its the new year already. time for reflections and new resolutions. i shld start thinking alr. LOL. eks. that means im turning 20! LOL. in like 11 mths. =_=

been sleeping at 3-4am these few days. and im amazed at how i can wake up at 10 the next day and not feel sleepy at all. just 6-7 hrs of slp. why cnt i be like this during sch days huh?

so many many things to do. not enough time!! and i havent gone out enough =(

these few days gone shopping. wee~ mon went shop shop with levina. sadly no lynn coz she overseas doing her own shopping in bangkok. and levina gg there like next mth too =_= everyone is getting to buy cheap shopping except me. rawr.
and today i went out shopping and dom. teehee~ kinda weird to be shopping with a guy...just kinda. since he is bestie. he is an exception =)

havent gone out with andrius, vian, nic and ianson in a mth alr! we need to meet soon =P

just another 1mth++-2mths and end of poly?! OMG. that means less than a mth left for MP. EVEN MORE ZOOOMGG. =/ gosh. ok i'm gg back to doing MP. work work work. whooo~!

preparation of slping late agn tonight.

snap back

im back from my ironically unhealthy holiday from shanghai. LOL. technically...arent all holidays unhealthy? LOL. i had like buffet breakfast every day. more than 8 hrs slp every day. FULL 3 meals a day. spend money and shop everyday. and no work done everyday. wow. ultimate tai tai life. LOL. so i shld never be one. or else i'd get fat. as it is nw i feel soooo freaking fat. zzz.

but its the holiday season. and im gonna feel this way till the end of the yr. or at least till the end of the week. i have set myself a limit!

today had our routined at-least-once-a-year steamboat BBQ at my hse with rc girls. as usual lotsa laughter. and realisation that we have known each other fro 3 yrs alr. and everytime this comes up 2 times pop up into my head 1. hw fast time flies and 2. i still find it amazing hw we ALL gt to be such gd friends over just 3-4 mths of working tgt and i have ppl i know for yrs and i never get that close.

busy this week. merry christmas =)

somethings never change. but nothing is forever. ironic much?

dreary christmas

Ok impromptu trip short hol to shanghai.feeling a little uneasy as im dropping my work and enjoying myself when i feel and know i shldnt. plus worried abt work pile up when i come back.but mummy and aunty wants to go so much. But what is there @ shanghai? Shopping and eating not that fantastic either...well @ least there is sanfu and semir =) not that biig consolation though oh well i shld be greatful that i at least get to go for a holiday and not stuck in Singapore the whole two weeks break.
And so term test is ovveerr~ but mp is not. In the lab nw doing shelf life study. Really dry TBC...

now i just dinner @ heeren's newly opened jap buffet. wooo really alot alot of varieties. But price is also like omggg! ex ttm! hahaha. but great environment and person i eat with =)

Ahh so today's shelf life was quite terrible so many hiccips and not enough time =( wrong time for holiday wrong time for christmas sighsss

Tmr gotta wake up @ 5Am!zzzz

Okay back to eating Although full ttm alrrrr
dieting continue aft christmas. lol.

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reflections

term tests next week. looked at the time table once more today and was thinking...hey nth to be that stressed abt really....then agn...hmmmm

ahh feeling like i am at a stand still with MP. and at a total loss and blur with PDM. so little subjects this sem and yet they are all heavy weights.

when i look at my reflection i hardly recognise myself. hah. yes mayb its how much weight i have lost. but also i look so tired. and old. with eye bags and wrinkles. i cnt imagine how i'd look like when i am REALLY old.
i wonder why guys are such external creatures?
these few days has just been wierd. phobia of sleeping. and also the loss of apetite. no im not becoming anorexic. just....dont feel like eating. i DO get hungry. and i KNOW i shld eat. but i just dont feel like eating. im guessing that is still a disorder though.
actually....i can explain the phobia of slping part. =x but not the loss of apetite.

i havent been online since monday. starting to feel like im a loner. LOL. and as i have said a few times on FB. i have bipolar moods. like when i left alone to my thoughts i become some emo deep melancholy person. but when im arnd people. i am my bubbly cute irritating self.
and honestly. although i HAVE found my MP3 i still havent touched it at all. weirdly....i loss an interest to listening to music after not listening to it for 3 weeks alr.

just a week more to my impromptu holiday to shanghai. i wonder if i shld have a total R&R or shld i continue with my workaholic streak. im worried what a R&R would do to my momentum u see.

really envy people who go for FAMILY meals/celebrations/holidays/ or have arguments i'd never get one. lately the feelings of anger, disappointment, resentment has been really strong. blame it on my curiousity.

A sleep.

i wish there was more than 24 hrs in a day. now i see why some people find that 24 hrs isnt enough.
coz it would be best if i had like 8-10 hrs of slp aday every single day. ahahaha. now im lucky if i get 6 hrs a day.

it got so bad yesterday that i could type half way. just close my eyes for a sec and actually fall aslp with my hand still on the laptop. AHAHAH. imagine that sight. i can even dream for a moment and then wake up to find that i am still typing something half way.

and so this week has been quite busy? lotsa MP stuffs to be accomplished but nothing done. sighs. mayb we arent delegating well?

honestly, i guess sometimes i do get sian of keep working with the same people tgt in the same grp right? BUT. the convinience and comfortable working style ur used to is the best. so....i LOVE working with the Lders and CLIQUE 6. =) and aiya. now feel that A8A4 is the best. and that through MP. im getting to know people from other courses better. ahahha.

term test is soon. and im scared that i cant cope with the stuffs to study especially with so many projects and deadlines taking up most of my time. i must have better time management.

time flies. the sem is ending soon. and then here comes overseas trips!!! XD and planning for further studies =/ just the thought of seperation from friends and family saddens me =(

in serious need of more money... and i truely regret not going for MNET concert =( like hello....free fan mtg included la! tsk. unfair.

as her eyes closed
her body consumed into slumber
her mind resists
it continues to wander

her mind stays wide awake
and goes into another place
her emotions joins in
things take a turn for the worst

few hours later her eyes meet the morning light
her body recharged
her mind exahusted
preoccupied

she won't let her mind rest
no. not after that
she pushes it hard with work
distractions help her destress.

everytime im in solitude
thats when i feel alone
cold
destitute.

everytime im alone and without
i change my mind
i close my eyes and ears
running away seems best

everytime its just me
thoughts stream in
imagination runs wild
doubts take over.

everytime im on my own
hiding seems the most comfortable
feigning seems the easiest
shuting up seems right.

Q&A with Lorelle Ang

ahahhas. doing this tag by dom from fb of Q&As coz i am finally slightly more free =)

TEN ARE YOURS
1. Are you single – No? =x
2. Are you happy – Yupps
3. Are you bored – nope. life is busy as a beeee.
4. Are you fair – im tanned. but i want to be fair!
5. Are you Italian – nope. but love italian food =P
6. Are you intelligent - DUH~HAHAH
7. Are you honest – i tell white lies
8. Are you nice - very very. especially if we're close
9. Are you Irish - nope. but i love their accent.
10. Are you Asian - totally

TEN FACTS

1. Full Name - Ang Tai Foon Lorelle
2. Nicknames – Lorry, Bell, Typhoon, more....
3. Birth place - China
4. Hair color - black but nt black with red (now brown) highlights
5. Natural hair style – Straight long hair w bangs (planning on changing soon)
6. Eye Color - Dark Brown?black?
7. Birth Date – 15 November 1991
8. Favourite hang out spot - Home, Ion, 313, cineleisure,
9. Favorite colors – Purple, Grey, Red, Yellow, White, Black
10. Places you’d like to visit - Europe, Korea, UK, Japan, HK

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love - Yes.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – Yes.
3. Do you currently have a crush? –NA i alr said im nt single right?
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - YES T.T
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart – unfortunately =/
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - YES T.T
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – who hasnt?
8. Are you afraid of commitment – slightly?
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – cnt rmb.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer – neither. unless beer is hoegarden if nt cocktail pls...
3. Cats or dogs - BOTH =D
4. A few best friends or any regular friends – Few best friends.
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Crunchy.
6. Pencil or Pen – Pen.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – Romantic Night in
8. Money or Happiness – Happiness.
9. Night or day – Night. dun like sun.
10. IM or phone – Phone.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – nope. im guai.
2. Seen a polar bear – yes
3. Done something you regret – hmmm.....
4. Bungee jumped – Never want to.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - ofcoz =x
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - wads that?
7. Been caught naked – nope.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - nope
9. Cried because you lost a pet – yes. when i was young and my cat got a hit and run accident.
10. Wanted to disappear – hmmm...


TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - doesnt matter?
2. Light or dark hair – doesn't really matter to me.
3. Hugs or kisses - both. teehee.
4. Shorter or taller - TALLER.
5. Intelligence or attraction – Both.
6. Topman or Zara – doesnt matter
7. Funny or serious - knows how to make me laugh. but knows when to be serious.
8. Older or Younger - older. max 2 yrs younger.
9. Outgoing or quiet – Outgoing.
10. Sweet or Bad - sweet. have enough of bad boys.


TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes, tons.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – Yes.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – no.
4. Ever been to a rock concert – yes! FTISLAND. ( r they rock?)
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – Nope.
6. Ever been on a dance team – Nope.
7. Ever been on a sports team – nope.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production – yupps.
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? nope. underaged.
10. Ever been in a rap video? – nope.


TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - Mum.
2. Last person you hugged - ahahhas. him =x
3. Last person you hung out with - Tam Tam Girls!
4. Last time you worked - Last yr Sept. unless OSIP is counted.
5. Last person you talked to - mum.
6. Last person you IM’d - him
7. Last person you texted - Rachel (G)lee
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – him
9. Last person/thing you missed - many many.
10. Last website visited - FB

our fate lies with god.

the world is really small. SINGAPORE is even smaller. LOL.
ytd found out that my pri sch fren is my sec sch junior's bf. LOL. honestly the link is more complicated than this. but wont elaborate. THAT is alr cool enuf =)

its funny how fate works in our life. how god plan's our lives. u see. if my sec sch friend. NEVER went JC first than drop out to poly...he would have never met his nw gf.
our life has been planned out by god. he gives us choices to make. but already knowing which path we'd take. so lift all worries up to him. and leave everything in his hands and he knows wads best for us.

wed was a busy busy day. did sensory evaluation. hmmm more improvements to be done ofcoz. but more imptly for lynn's pudding....i pray for everyone's MP or FYP whatever.

the week is coming to an end agn. and my taste buds have not recovered =/ lose my appetite whenever that thought comes to mind. sighs.
and i have been craving ALOT for ice cream lately. i feel like eating magnum. i feel like eat the walls lime ice vanilla filling one i feel like eating the 3 flavours tgt gotcha one. i feel like eating conetto. i feel like eating sticky chewy chocolate. i feel like eat durian ice cream. rawr.

more more more rest this weekend.yay.

i predict. ND would be hard for me to study. i keep falling aslp in lect =_= zzzz.

i wanna go shopping~! i wanna watch HP =( se7en is having free singing tmr @ mandrin gallery orchard. FREE.sighs.

goodbye hell week

hahahas. now i know my limits. sleepy is really the most impt lifestyle to me. ahhahas.
i cannot have less than 6 hrs sleep over 3 days straight esp when im already sick with low immunity. yeah yeah. call me weak. or spoilt or whatever.perhaps next time it would be worst. but for now. just let me be.

but i haf to say. its rather fun. to experience total burnout or exhaustion. and honestly. its not that i had tired myself out for nothing. i had fun and did many many many things during this time. although slp had to be sacrificed. there is no choice....this is the lifestyle of my beloved FT, DBSK and UKISS. T.T

so here was the schedule for the week

thurs
tp rawks @ 7.30 @ night did CCN day cookies till 2.45am.

fri
tp rawks @ 7.30 lunch @11 did icing and MP till 4pm. CCN day. then UKISS concert q@6PM show start @ 8pm. ended @10.30 reach home. bathed. did MP slept @ 1.30. stupid me.

sat
GI symposium @ 8 finished @ 1. showed MP stuff to company SUP. ate lunch. did ND project. met up with GV loves @ 7. reached home 11pm. did MP =_= till 1am. totally seh alr.

sun
skipped church =x slept till 12pm. ate lunch bathe. slept till 4pm. studied 1 hr. slept another 2 hrs till dinner. total shit. have quiz next day. slept @ 12

mon
woke up @10. studied. went to sch ate lunch. did MP. studied a little. had tut. quiz time. EFFING screwed up. zzzz. getting overit now. and now doing MP.

idk abt u. but seeing u smile and be happy. makes me the happiest.