new man in my life?

heya firstly...i really hafta say that the past few days has really been a roller coaster ride of emotions for me.lotsa ups and downs.its like it suddenly takes me back to the past when i used to really dislike poly life...
then its like another thing i really REALLY dislike is when how people tell you after a test/exam its sooo hard sooo hard sure cannot do well blah blah...and then...they get so high marks...or even FULL MARKS and then practically shoves it at ur face.LIKE GEES!!
i guess the only thing keeping me sane are really junsu/DBSK, and levina and NH the new man in my life.LMAO.shall elaborate abt that later.

ahh...anyways more abt today...i consider myself ABIT of a perfectionist....so i cant really take set backs or failures well.in fact i'll start getting frustrated/angry with myself...and start to get like zi bei and low morale and stuff....really bad...and today...it was kinda like a triple blow to me man....coz first...got back my maths quiz...which i alr new before hand that i wouldnt really do well..but due to a certain someone...made me feel MUCH worse...and then RIGHT after that is my BMIC lab test...which previous classes who have alr taken it says that it is horribly difficult...so that makes me worried...and when i went there...its true..i can JUST almost bet that the slide for the microscope is like spoilt or smth coz alot of ppl including me cannot see even a spec of microorganism on it.and then its like my fren's bunsen burner had problem also...they shld really check the supplies before letting us use u know.its so darn screwed up~! and so that was my second set back....and ofcoz lynn said its so hard...gee...i'd know better than to believe that its difficult for her. so while the first grp was waiting for the second group to finish...we were doing nothing...BAD for my mood.so i thought mayb i shld go to the com lab and like use the com to vent on my blog...BUT. gees.the com lab was so darn crowded! and then what was WORSE of all is that my mp3 couldnt work either.WHY? coz i was careless enuf to forget to turn it off the previous day and NOW the batt has konked out and cannot be used. so much for DBSK therapy. and then...decided to go library...and then when they were all done..lynn called me to tell me...but duno whats wrong with her damn fone...or mayb it was too noisy...she says hello...i say hello many times.and she hangs up.this happen twice.im like WTF.alr pissed enuf....i was starting to think today JUST wasnt my day...

ahh~~~ but!! when i went for BNF lect...i saw my eye candy!!! ahhh...instantly made me smile...well...to me my eye candy has the back view, side view and hairstyle of junsu...so he really REALLY reminds me of junsu...so this makes me happy.i duno what's his name...or even his class...i only know his course.DUH.coz only 3 courses taks BNF module.and out of the 3 courses.1 of the them only has 1 class.so he is definately NOT in there. anyways we nicked name him NH for nice hair.LOL.coz he DOES have nice hair and that TOTALLY made me notice him.coz i felt he has similar hair style to junsu.LOL.i RMB noticing him like LONG ago...but totally forgot abt it coz it was last yr before the really long mid term hols...so its like i didnt really do well for BNF quiz...however i was kinda too happy to be sad.TEEHEE.

and then when we went for lunch..i was hoping he'd be at the same place eating.then i this guy who is possibly his fren and got my hopes up...and then i saw ANOTHER of his fren which i KNOW sat with him in the LT during the lect and got ALL excited.turned out...he was sitting in PERFECT view of where i was sitting.so while eating i was enjoying the "wonderful view" in front of me.thank goodness i didnt make a mess as i wasnt really concentrating on how i ate.
unfortunately...i have this HUGE feeling he smokes or smth.not really sure. but he does kinda look like the type who does. but i can just imagine him cooking or smth...ahhh~! so suave...initially i (wierdly enuf) didnt like looking at his face.wasnt really eye-candy material.only his back view and front view.but the more i look at him the more i think he is kinda good looking from the front as well. especially when he either has the act cool expression or when he TOTALLY softens and has a LOL moment.he looks really kinda good. ahh~~~ but his rating kinda fell abit coz of the possibilty he may be a smoker.

oh tell u a really LAME joke. well coz we were making fun of this guy...who isnt very good looking...but he is supposed to act as "rain" u know the korean actor/singer in lynn jap role play.and then coz for jap always hafta add a "san" like lorelle-san kinda thing. so i said i am rain-san. then my fren continued...i am umbrella-san...and then i burst out laughing coz i thought of someting lame...( 1 huge thing in common with junsu..lame-ness..i take pride in it) anyways...then i continued..i am yu-san.LMAO. there are really ALOT of lameness going on..

ooo...cant wait for tmr where i can watch BOF "marathon" till the wee hrs...GYP here i comeeee

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