dream queen

i think i have a sleep disorder. since idk when i have been having dreams every single night. multiple dreams....dream within dreams...etc. and it makes me tired when i wake up tt no amt of sleep is really enuf. it is good when i have good and happy dreams ofcoz...coz it wld keep me happy the whole day. bad if it is bad dreams. duh. when i say bad i dont mean like scary ghost whatever. but like realistic scary.like someone dying.

these few days been having lotsa good dreams. mayb tts why its been putting me in a good mood. hahhas. this whole week in fact XD.

lotsa dreams seem to bring back ppl frm the past. HAH. weird but interesting. mayb tts why im in an even better mood coz srsly i feel e past is better than the present and future. accept for Lders and clique 6...e past few 3 yrs were quite a blur and bleh. =x

but living in the past isnt a good thing...it makes my present life look so bleh...and it makes me wish stuffs i knw wont happen. make me feel things i knw tt r baseless feelings. not good at all coz all those feelings that i tried so hard to get rid of is slowly coming back. i knew this would happen sooner or later. but i have always been in denial.

i hate the green monster. i guess over the years no one else would do because they r just not you. =/