Disappointments

previously, i mentioned that through the projects in school i have gotten to know my classmates better and get along with them better....but the recent things that happened showed me that perhaps i was wrong about all that. on two occasions i have been proven wrong. after this things feel like its going downhill. 
i am so glad i dont have to go to school today. i dont really feel like facing them at all. 
behind that smile hides a dagger. perhaps they are all wolves in sheeps clothing. or perhaps they are not as bad and the situation is just a one...or two...off thing. all i know for sure now is that, things will not be the same. i wont dare dream or hope that i have become closer to my classmates. i shouldnt have let my guard down. the walls. should just stay up. 

disappointments only come when you have high expectations. when you have high hopes abt something. now i hope for nothing. because then i wont be disappointed. we shall all live our own lives after this...unofficially in another 18 days. afterall...2/3 of the class is going to NZ. 

ofcourse the quote above doesnt apply to everyone. there are some people that it is just impossible not to get too attached to....

on a side note...trying to lose weight for an upcoming wedding im attending so that i will look nice in the dress. sigh. it is so hard. everytime i try. i feel like im losing myself more than losing weight. the price to pay for beauty...or at least my perception of it. but so far...still no progress...sigh. so hard when i love to eat and love all the fatty food too much.