changes...

ahh this is why holidays are a bad thing for me. i get soooo less busy that i have time to sit down and actually THINK and reflect. which sometimes isnt the best thing. worst thing. im supposed to be asleep NOW coz its 3.30am and im supposed to wake at 9 for Lders coming over to my place for our holiday ritual- concerts + cooking (C&C)

changes occur all the time throught our lives. we change according to the people and the environment around us. but deep down inside, we are still ultimately the same person. have you ever wondered or compared yourself when you first entered poly, first entered secondary school, first entered primary school, to now?
i know what remains the same for me is that i always and still hate orientation camps and first few days at school, where you are just getting to know one another and always having awkward laughs.
but i know what's different is that at each 'first few days' of the different levels of education, i get more confident and more proactive to make friends rather than letting the friends come to me.

but overall, i really cannot tell if i have changed for the better or for the worst. but as the years past, i no longer look at the world with simple eyes. gone were the days when everything was once innocent. im looking out for every simple small details that could be suspicious and threatening, so that i can protect myself. all this has got to do with the experiences you have come across while growing up.

one more obvious change is that i feel myself growing in my spiritual walk with god.

adaptability. i think we all need to have that. all i know right now is that, people change according to the situation. but remeber...you got to find yourself back from deep down inside to at least keep a small original part of yourself. and ofcourse, never conform to the expectations of the people around you. i should just let things work its way, and happy to be me.

bell