speechless

from more then 3 persons whom i know this week have told me that they want to just experience and have fun in rs. that now isnt the time to want to find the one.

and all along. i was living in my own bubble thinking that all girls would want to find a bf that they can last forever with.

and here i always thought that guys were the one who likes to play the field and jump from one flower to another like bees.

it sad to know that rs are not 'sacred' anymore. that im the only one with some old traditional grandma mindset to wanna last forever with the one and live happily ever after.

the society and the people around me are making me question more, and make me afriad even more. to ask : is there ever a pure, honest rs, without strings attached? without the thinking " just another rs to add to my fun experiences?" or " im tired of this rs. sian of my partner. i wanna experience more new stuff" just when i was letting my guard down....looks like reality just slapped me in the face again.


i know ppl must be thinking...why make such a big deal out of this? why make a mountain out of a molehill? well to me its like telling me that lying to someone is good and why not steal too.


but right now i just feel really sad, disappointed, speechless and foolish. prolly need to take some time out for a while =(
hah. looks like im learning how to escape by runing away too.

idk it guess it is just me. who i am to judge anyways? everyone has their own right of their own thinking. but im not gonna conform to the ways of this world. even though i will prolly end up at the losing end and getting hurt and bitten in the butt.

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