moody like URGH!@#%$^

i thought it through....and here are my reason for why my mood sucks TTM. and u'll see how it all links up

1. PMS.
having blood coming out of me every every mth is bad enough. but the sucky moods and cravings that come with it is worst. thank god i am the type who have cramps...or else....i wont even blog coz i would be too pissed to even turn it on.

2. SWIMMING
because of my period i cannot swim. and i have been swimming every alt day and i suddenly feel lost and empty NOT swimming.

3. FAT
so because i am not swimming...or rather CANNOT swim. i have this INSANE paranoia that i will put on weight again over the week..........so im thinking of ways and means to make up for the loss of exercise. so instead i start walking everywhere. even up and down the stairs, cycle, pilates, and eat salad every day for 1 meal for this week and yogurt for the other.... and i still feel like its not enough. so because of this i dont really feel like going out with ppl dont feel like talking to ppl. however, some days already set.

4. PERCEPTION
refering to the point above. ICANNOTBELIEVEIMHAVINGTHESEKINDATHOUGHTS. IHATEHAVINGWEIGHTISSUES. WHO THE EFF IS THE BLOODY IDIOT WHO STARTED THE "thin equals beautiful" crap. and worst. why have i adopted the same mentality? if ever i become anorexic or smth. slap me. T.T T.T T.T

5.NODBSK.
last time when i was down. just watching a DBSK mv. or listening to a new DBSK song would lift my spirits up and make me smile again. BUT. if i go and listen or watch now. i would cry more T.T

6.PMS
can i stress this enough??? HATEITTTM.

now that i have typed everything out. it seems so silly. URGH. T.T. frustrated. T.T
now just gonna curl up and read my book or smth.

how can i sing k with this mood??

3weeks.