on tuesday i had a class with sec 1 normal students. and they were really naughty but really entertaining. and it made me really wanna be a teacher then.
and on wed ytd, i had a practical class with sec 1 express students. and they were really well behaved and nice and enjoyed the recipes i had found for their "mocktail" drinks. i felt a great sense of reward at that time and it made me wanna be a teacher even more. but then i was thinking... this is only sec 1 classes. will sec 2,3,4,5 be as fun? or will it be more challenging or more difficult? and ofcoz there are more stuff to being a teacher besides just teaching. besides that there are meetings and other admin stuff to do and ofcoz meeting difficult parents as well.
so it really is making me think twice. and at the same time i am praying abt it and asking if that is my calling. i do belive i have the passion for the subject FNN and HECONs....but is that what god wans me to do?
yes speaking of god. i have been doing my QT consistantly since mon. yay me. and i believe rach and yu ru have been trying their best too as i get reminders from rach almost everyday ^^ thanks dearie!
so far i have not been thinking too much abt the decision i made. i know it really is drastic and everything. and i have been pushing the issue to the back of my mind so that i won feel sad abt it or whatever. infact on that day i thought i would cry to sleep or smth. and then before sleeping i prayed and i suddenly felt a sense of calmness and was thinking " why shld i cry? i dun wanna have a stuffed nose before going to sleep. and my eyes will be puffy tmr" and i slept immediatelyafter that.
however, ytd, while watching singapore idol, i heard the song breakaway by kelly clarkson and it reminded me...BUT the song kinda further encouraged me to breakaway.
and seriously....i am getting bored in school. coz my partner is the OPPOSITE of me totally. and soooo quiet that if i dun talk he doesnt either and it drives me NUTS! coz im someone who kinda hates keeping quiet the whole time. and i hate being the "leader"...i mean...HELLO. he is the guy here.
p.s. i am in school blogging.LOL.
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