13th post in china

weekends have came and gone again....

atmosphere is cold here...i hope it gets settled soon seems like everything needs time. and time has proven once again all problems can be solve. im glad the atomsphere is warming up. im also glad me and levina always settle our issues quick and never lets it last till the next day. did they have same issues last year? or were they much happier without the drama surrounding them?

have i ever wondered if i regret coming here? YES alot. the ups and downs here are really taking a toil on me.
i am sick and tired of having a taste of a good thing and then it gets taken away just like that.
i am so annoyed that the bad things seemed to be out weighing to good
i am so frustrated that issues keep coming up one by one and taking forever to solve

but...people always say u can never have too much of a good thing. and that all good things come to an end but the bad just keeps coming.isnt it?

it was a mistake no doubt. but why am i glad the mistake happened? =x although i keep saying i can forget. but i seem to fail to convince the most impt person. myself. now im stuck. and i feel so vulnerable. i cannot pull myself away even though i want to because we're starting to be dependent on each other. but what happens when it has to come to stop? what will my preventive measure be now...? it seems like im too late....

bell