its hard when i have the gift of laughter. LOL.sounds BHB. but i guess thats what i realise....that my gift/talent from god is to bring laughter to others and cheer em up when they are down. esp my dear friends.
but where does that leave me? who is there to cheer me up? even when i feel down and emo. i still have to take a deep breath and suck it up, put it to the back of my mind and think of smth funny/witty/cheeky whatever to say. and finally when that person in question is feeling better, then i can deal with my own feelings. how tiring is that?
but 2 person in the same room cannot be emo at the same time. the atmosphere will just freeze. so that just leaves me with......no choice?
so next time if u see me laughing without that sparkle in my eyes. know that im crying inside. then again....i hate it how my eyes seem to always give my emotions away~ rachel....i dun wanna talk with my eyes =( people have poker face...i wanna have poker eyes =P ahahhahahhha.
sometimes i really wonder if all these confusion, complications, doubts, worries are all necessary....it does nothing but keep playing in our minds and drags us down. and we still have what....arnd 2 more mths to go?! please let all the sadness end here. i don't think i can always act strong. rach....please pray for me =(
so i guess sometimes...i really need a breather. and i found out that....reading alone in the steps of the corridor with the fresh and cold air is a really good place. however, it cannot be long. coz either i would freeze to death on the steps. or feel creeped alone at night...or....i need to pee. LOL!
anyways.....GUESS WHAT?! while on a random exploration of the supermarket, there is chilli sauce, jam spread, SKIPPY peanut butter. LOL. oh well....i guess its only right they have all those right? its not like they are living in another planet =P so....I ATE PEANUT BUTTER AND BREAD TODAY! WEEEEE~ ㅋㅋㅋㅋ. its sooo funny. coz its not like i really love peanut butter or whatever. even though i must have looked like i love it. LOL....its more like 一分钟热度...only thing is...mummy isnt here to finish the rest up =P luckily im not the only one eating the peanut butter XD.
andandand the weekends are here! i hope this would lift everyone's spirits! im totally looking forward to sunday....unless...it rains or...everyone just wans to hide in their rooms. that would just burst my happy bubble.
on a side note. totally unrelated. i miss seeing the 5 of em together as 1. why are they all solo now? it just seems totally different and empty....-criesabucket-
when there is even a whiff of romance = many whiffs of complications and headaches.get worse when.....3's a crowd...?
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